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2006-09-11T21:48:00.000+08:00

msn is down! boo. thats not nice. ok.. life's pretty much very fucked up right now. rlly fun that there's no CCA. not that i will skip my CCA. but it feels like i have the whole time in the world.

fairsian connect. ms wong expects us to study 4 hours aday. omg. please. i have a life. =.=. studying 2 hours with homework 3 times a week is enough. lol. WHY STUDY SO MUCH?zz. i'll be revising maths and science mostly. and history before the exams. english no problem. chinese.... eh. lol. we'll see if i even want to bother learning chinese. =s

lalalalalalala. im nice so i decided to post abit. nowadays damn lazy. sigh. see. i think im having mood swings! its not the time of the month but, yeah. zz. i know i think too much. im this person who worries alot. lol. and i get like so fked up. too many things running up my mind. gahh!

2006-09-10T22:51:00.000+08:00

someone take a gun and shoot me.

mood: sad, tired, guilty.
i never wanted anything to end up like this. Sigh. never met anyone who looked that fking sad before. and its all my fking fault. ... why?why me?why... i just wish i could just jump off a building.

2006-09-09T20:24:00.000+08:00

yes, people. im back from Jakarta and im too lazy to post. :D.

2006-09-01T22:32:00.000+08:00

sigh. and all the hopes for me to go to GRII pusat in jakarta. guess i dont have a choice. seriously, damn sad.

oh well... today bought a new top.. frm the BBQ party thing. sabrina's my parents' house agent. her younger sist opened a new shop. then got BBQ party also. all girlfriends insterested to go there please tell me.they only have 1 stocks that are imported frm europe, US, thailand, korea etc.etc. and they usually modify them. yeap. looks nice to me :).

oh yes, and those who doesnt know about it, im going to jakarta for 1 week from tomorrow onwards... yeap. afternoon. im STILL DAMN SAD THAT I CANT GO GRII OK? REALLY. sigh. :(.

here's how the top look like.

2006-08-31T21:06:00.000+08:00

woke up at 7:30. did homework until approximately.. 9.30+? reached btps at 10:30. met alot of people. here's a photo of dinnie, chairmaine and i. oh, kar hoe went 'solo'! =P ahaa.

after that, daddy fetched me to bukit batok. then i took mrt to jurong east. met justin, went to leroys house. :D. ordered PIZZA :D. jasmine-want some? =p

haha. had a lot of fun. LEXIE'S A SWEET LIL CUTE ADORABLE NICE DOGGGGG :D. weee.

and yes, i know i look like fuk in the pic. i, well.. was kinda scared of lexie for that moment of time. cos she was like getting outta hand. =(. she scrathed me today! boo hoo. hands and tigh! =(. LEROY WAS SPRAYING WATER AT ME LIKE WTH =.=. lol. aiya, we had PURE FUN. xD. Justin, im so sorry for you man. anyways, SHIT happens. get used to it =P. ahhahah xD.

then, went to bukit timah plaza. ate KFC. went home with joyce and janelle. went to my house for about .. 1.5 hours. yeap. talked. since we havent met for a long time. see wether going sentosa tml anot D:... lalallaa. think i'll be doing maths in the morning tomrrow. finished history assignment and lifeskills project. art just need to pain the.. umm.. floor. yeap. thats about it D:.

2006-08-30T21:45:00.000+08:00

okaay. today celebrated teachers day. i think it was um, well. GAY! =.=. okay, i dont wanna go into details =S. lol. either ways... after that, leroy, amos and i went to IMM to eat lunch. Leroy got himself a pizza, amos got himself a lasagne,and me, i got myself some tacobell meal im still not so sure what it is.

what i know is that, the pizza was so small for 7 bucks. and the lasagne looked scary. but whats worse is that, my food looked like and FIRST tasted like BURNT prata (wtf) lol. =P

after that, went home and change. met ong and jia cheng at tiong bahru mrt at 2:45. went to safra mount faber and played pool until approx 4. then we drank coffee and continued playing. :D. played until 4:50+

here are some pictures that i took after the coffe while playing pool!

ong !

jia cheng in action! =X

waiting for my turn to playyy. hoho.

jia cheng and i D:

went to tiong bahru plaza. bought nail polish+lipgloss. jiacheng payed approx 40% of it. Lol (rich kid =P!)haha.

then we took some neos. after that, we went home. :D. met daddy at jurong east mrt, then went to fetch mommy. then eat pancake for dinner in the car. yum yum. den finsh lifeskills project (took me 2 goddamn hours -.-)

*will be uploading the neos soon. do check back if you want to see it!*

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2006-08-27T20:21:00.000+08:00

okaaay. showered a little before 11. finally got ready by 11:30, cos the reservation for the haircut was at 12, we decided to go for drive thru in mcdonald's kap. ate chicken fantastic. :D.

reached the hair saloon at approximately 12:10. finished at approximately 1. wanna see my new hair? i dont think there's much of a difference. but i like my fringe. its side parting now. not much of a difference cos: tim, febyan, alan(not from my school), nathaniel, mom, dad and many other people said i look nicer with long hair. so i decided to just trim it :D. *sideviews are always good!*

look kokoh kevin! MY HAIR IS NATURALLY BLUE-BLACK. UNLIKE YOURS. MWAHAHHA

after haircut, shopped abit. i bought a ripcurl short pants. then went to mccafe, enjoy the delicious cappucino topped with cinnamon with mom! :D. then went inside lido. and to only know that there's this hot billabong pants i bought! wahahhaha. <333 love em! :D *took a few pics of the pants and decided to spend 45 minutes to combine all of them nicely! xD*

and here's a picture of me enjoying my cofffeee :).

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2006-08-26T22:01:00.000+08:00

um. okay. lol. friday.. morning time was still having fever-but i dont have a choice. haha. school was boring as usual. um. band was really tiring-in a way or another. =/. parents fetched after school.

today morning, went out with tim to eat 'breakfast'. cos i woke up..kinda late xD. then after that went with family to paragon.(going to chop off my hair tomorrow there-at hollywood's secrets) ate at din tai fung. food was okkkkaay. haha. then went for youth class.

celebrated people's birthdays that falls on august. pizza was ok. the .. green tea was um, frozen. lol. cc anita got a new hairsyle. damn cute lor. lololol. i shall get one tomorrow! D:. xD.

ate dinner at hilltop restaurant at bukit batok place. nice food. expensive too. =|. lol. some chinese restaurant. hahah

tomorrowwww.. homework. lunch. chopoff hair, church. sleep. whee. then 2 days of pain school. 1 day of celebration and 2 days of holidays. YAY. might be going KL or jakarta :D

a re-sized photo taken after dinner.

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2006-08-23T20:34:00.000+08:00

sigh. im super tired ok? sigh. and today the class didnt take class photo. i spent an hour just making a decent photo of EVERYONE. haha. tired lah. im sick! really. chest pain, cant breathe properly. fever. sneezing. flu. damn weak. sigh. friggin teachers day lah. so many things to do for the teachers. frustrated. stress=sick. =(. this is what i got anws. . sigh. tired. paiiiiiiiin. chest pain zz. sinus sucks. sigh.

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2006-08-22T22:48:00.000+08:00

omg. school's so screwed up. friggin teacher's day. then so many teachers. =.=.. band, form, subject teachers. gahhhhhhhhh! =/ rawrr! >=(. other than that, maths seem so difficult now! polygons suck! argh =(. sob. having difficulties doing this stupid chapter. -.-... friggin formulaes. zzz.

oh well. since im SUPER tired just doing so many stupid stuffs the whole day long cos of school, i shall go and have a GOOD rest now! SO TIRED. oh, yesterday was damn tiring also. eyes swollen(those who are close to me, would probably know why. haha xD). yeap! not gonna post alot for today-too tired =Pp

to carina and eunice: i'll make the blogskins when im free. right now, im SUPER SUPER DUPER BUSY. eekz. today took a pic of ourselves. (only half of the class came though) -.-. too bad my fringe too long. then i have to pin it up =/. during school hours only lah. hahaha. took a pic with carina, eunice, ang and edwin. *for my group that is :p*

ok. thats it people! OFF TO BED *zoooooooom!*

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2006-08-21T21:53:00.000+08:00

someone take a BIG gun and shoot me. i know there are people out there who would be HONOURED to do it. thanks alot guys, i really need it. i really need gossips all over the place. i really need a person who betrays, talk back and say all kinds of shit of me. thanks alot. really. i owe alot to all of you guys.

regrets i have alot. guilt is, also plenty.

i hate so many people. but because of the people i love, i live this life. so please, dont over do it. you guys had done enough. just leave me in peace. ok? i dont care about you, you dont care about me. you copy me, i dont give a shit. you annoy me, i dont give a shit. so please, DONT GIVE A SHIT ABOUT ME. ARGH.

HATE ME?! JUST SAY IT. ZOMG. DONT CREATE A FUSS AND GOSSIP ALL KINDS OF NONSENSE

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2006-08-20T08:20:00.000+08:00

my life is full of hatred and pain and sadness. im so fucking temperamental. its not that i want to be like this. seriously, i cant control myself. that's why i'd rather be outside of the house. FUCK.

OK. I GET ANGRY WITH MY FAMILY MEMBERS THE EASIEST. you know why? cos they're so distant from me. they fcking hell dont know any shit about me exp for my bro. fuck. they dont know what i want, what i feel, what i think. and they always assume that if they want it that way, others will too-but hell, NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

WHO THE F EATS CAKES OR RICE FOR BREAKSFAST? WTF? AT LEAST NOT ME. IM NOT SIAO. AND I HATE HATE HATE HATE REALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLY HATE PEOPLE WHO JUDGE OTHER INDIVIDUALS JUST BY READING THEIR BLOG. FCK THEM HARD.

EVERYTHING IS JSUT SO FKING MESSED UP NOW. LIFE SUCKS. FINANCIAL, RELATIONSHIPS WITH EVERYONE I GET SO FKING FRUSTRATED BY THEIR STUPID LITTLE ACTIONS. THEY'RE ALWAYS A LITTLE TOO LATE. PARENTS, EX, ETC. THEY ALL . OMFG

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2006-08-19T21:30:00.000+08:00

hmm. was too tired to post yesterday.. so here's for yesterday's short entry :). had PE on friday. played basketball. only a few girls werent slacking(not more then 5). was the only girl who played basketball. haha. i owned shooting lah =X. 2 silence in less then an hour? how cool is that. and yes, it was in a match. so i wasnt just randomly shooting myself or anything.

mr lee's also a basketball player. so he played with us. hahaha. =). sigh, thinking of basketball reminds me of kokoh kevin. no1 to play basketball with now.. =(. anyways.. that's about it. school was boring as usual. had history assignment(going to be counted in PPR for term 3), but i dont care. screw history. zzz. band? it was ookkay. new song: house moving castle. =/

afternoon went to meet mahmoud(this thursday going back to eygpt, dno when coming back =( ).. and kar hoe. met kar hoe at 11:45 pm, went to bukit batok together. reached there at 12:10. met mahmoud at 12:40(not because he was late, in fact he reached like half an hour earlier then we did). know what's the problem? he was.. upstairs -.-.. lol.

went to lot 1, ate at long john silver. tried the new chicken thingie. aha, really liked it =). price was reasonable. um, but hell, i like everything about long john silver. hahaha. after that went to the arcade, played 1 game for DDR(cos they cant play =x), alot of shooting, and racing. i owned and trashed them la. hahaha. got first position x3. hee. after that we took neos. not that i really like them, just that mahmoud is going away soon, so..something to remember about him ..mm? :)

after that went to youth class. today youth class was fun :D. got new girl and guy. girl:grade 10 in acs international(Jesclyn)<<< jessica's childhood friend. guy: Vikki(or smth like that), taking 'IT' in MDIS. wondering if he's in infocomm. haha. today youth class was fun cos alot of more on groupings then hearing boring long preachs. heh. i just..dont like not doing anything but listenin for one dammned hour. i'd fall asleep-im sure of it. :p

went to orchard to meet cc kezia, walked abit. then ate Tori-Q. den half way daddy came to fetch us. he also bought Tori-Q. den went to kinokunia for a while. bought kezia her birthday present. pshh. 20 bucks gone =|. oh well. so yeap, after that i got like real bored and all. so just..go home. so this is it >.>

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2006-08-16T20:03:00.000+08:00

life's so screwed up nowadays. *smile keren* =/.

living a life as a routine? alot of people do that. yeap. today woke up slightly late. den took car to school. reach school at 6:45. school. knew was gonna have difficulties staying up during D&T class-which i did. dry subject. stupid pratical. cant cut the bloody woodpiece. people cut 2 pieces i havent even done halfway. wth =.=.

school ended at 1:15 cos last 2 period is study. decided to pei carina for her maths remedial and do my own english homework. now i finished all my homework which is like. dued..next week?zzz. ate lunch at dover.

after lunch went home, slept, and be late for ballet class. lol. had to eat CEREAL for dinner cause im allergic to fresh onions. mom made some dish got onions. probably forgot that i couldnt eat it. my dad probably doesnt even know. so much for being with me for my whole entire life-so much for being my parents. friggin gap.

oh, screw fairfield school musical. noobs who cant publish good songs. noobs who cant act properly, noobs who cant dance that well. noobs who can arrange the plot nicely and noobs who tries to make a good storyline but never manage to succeed. tahts my point of view. so not going to waste my money to watch it. unless i going with chris, jeremy ong, mitra and they all. see first. either ways. i still. dont wanna go =/

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2006-08-13T22:38:00.000+08:00

tired? mmm. yeap. had been playing rose. so i havent been posting much. yesterday i slept cos i was damn tired and couldnt go for youth service. after that went to eat dinner with family in jurong east.

watched the break up. was nice. i mean yeah. really down to earth. reflects what just happened to me last time. and.. the ending was just..snap. like that. past's the past. have to move on. like it or not. shit happens. and we dont have a choice. learn frm the mistakes we made. and avoid to do it again. that's all i gotta say.

played rose until 5:30 am. woke up at 10:30 and then played somemore. went to church. after church went to plaza singapura. ate dinner at food court. bought new bra D:. lol! <3 xd. *hyper*. hahahha. then just reached home approx 10 minutes ago ;D.

gonna sleep at approx 11 i think? see first.

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2006-08-10T19:59:00.000+08:00

lol. was too lazy to post in the morning yesterday. too tired to post at night after going to Ikea yesterday xD.

ok, i started the day with going to orchard to buy jiarong his birthday present. my sister got new sandals and my parents bought a set of clothe and socks for a new born baby! x333 heee. den ate some wanton noodles at heeren. parents wanted to try it. left orchard at approx 5 o clock.

reached some hospital located in thomson road, (near macritchie) to visit my dad's friend's wife and NEW BORN BABY! omg, i tell you arh, its SUPER SUPER SUPER CUTE! it has such a SOFT SOFT SMOOTH BABY SKINNN. and its cheeks are like OMG ! AWWWWWWWWW x3. heee. my mom carried him here and there. my mom got too excited. cos she said last time we were all like that, small and cute. now we're so big, so not innocent or cute. lol. wtf xD. the baby's name is Neo Lanz or smth. u know why the cool name? well. MATRIX MY FRIEND, MATRIX. lol? the father of the son likes matrix movie. thats why the baby's name is neo. haha. cute right. lol, i should consider doing stuffs like that. rofl

left the hospital at approx 6.10, went to ikea to have our dinner. i ate swedish meatballs and some chicken wings, salad and salmon i got frm my other family members. =).

bought a new SOFA BED which is like how cool? and how expensive? haha. parents had been buying new stuffs. new car, new house, new furniture, new lcd screens, new phones, new things! wheee. how nice x3.

made a conference with christopher, jeremy ong and tan, hao yang and suan fong. darn funny. hahahaha! jeremy tan and i were "meow"-ing all the way. rofl. den his mother scold him for meowing too much . LMAO. xD. funny people <33

today nth much. kinda wanna sleep early. got school tomorrow =(. think no band. hee. im in a mood for playing pool. but guess what? yes, im still friggin 13. damit. =o=. i should just get a new hobby. bowling? hmm. dont think so. lalala

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2006-08-08T21:01:00.000+08:00

haha. today performance was Ok. cos i was kinda tired so i didnt play loudly =/. um. after school went home for a while, den went to bukit timah plaza to eat at some korean restaurant with my dad ! =). then went home help my dad for a while, den go westmall to meet tim liew and YY.

watchd Tokyo drift with em. haha, for a NORMAL girl its the coolness that we like(yes, carina tan qiu kheng, u are not! xD). haha. yeah. now just for now and foever, click and lakehouse for me to watch! wheee.

"baby, i love you more then anything else! :D"

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2006-08-07T20:23:00.000+08:00

Just rehearsed for tomorrow's national day parade. super tired. tomorrow think ending school at 11.30. probably eat lunch and go out after school. half day. super excited. haha. then whats best is that wednesday and thursday, its the hols :).

im mainly tired cos of yesterday night(after church). hahaha. bought new handphone pouch, a new small pouch and 2 pairs of earrings :). ate at Es teler 77(damn nice place. probably one of the few favourite food places for any indonesian. haha) located at Cinilesuire. Then went shopping for a lil, and watched Pirates of the Carribean. the movie was OK lah. 3.5/5? nothing much. worse still, there's still going to be another movie to continue the story. zzz..

i wanna watch Now and Forever. some KOREAN drama movie. looks damn nice. haha. but im super broke. bzzshzz. >.<

tomorrow need to wake up early, and perform in the morning! plus i must bring a change cos i dont have the friggin band blouse cos i was never given a chance to buy or receive. i think abit unfair to debra and i. sian. =/

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2006-08-06T10:18:00.000+08:00

=|. im still sick! oh well. got good good good goood goooood news today! x3. yesterday slept from 3.45 to 6+(cos i got awaken by my mom's phone call).(yeah, couldnt go for youth class due to the fever! :() fever went down after the nap =D. went to plaza singapura with my parents to get a new plan and handphone. (please take note that i'll be using a different number soon!!).

the modle is SGH-E870. =)click here to check out more about it. my phone's color silver white. the pink is kinda pale .. so's the blue. haha. it's more expensive then N70 even though N70 has got more um, functions. but i didnt buy the phone for functions right. more of the nice model and the compact size =).

the model is more of for females lah. very feminine. hehehehehe :). im gonna take a short nap now. shower and then go out , and then go to church :D. ..um, good..afternoon! xD

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2006-08-05T11:13:00.000+08:00

you must be wondering how boring and dead is my life that i post everyday nowadays. i finished all my homework. made a new blogskin. lotsa stuff.

sigh. i had been sick since yesterday, and i cant rest even when i want to. i just cant sleep >.>. breakfast was a piece of chocolate. why? oh, thats because i live in this family who doesnt have any food-all the time. my mom doesnt cook, my dad said he'd buy me food-which he never did, and right now, he's in tampinise.

am i correct, do i have the rights, to say that they're not really doing a good job being a parent to provide their kids with food? its totally understandable that my mom is busy with work. but my dad, sigh. he's probably the person who can make me piss the most next to jonathan.

i ate chocolate for breakfast(since that's the ONLY food i can find at home), a piece of chocolate roughly 10cm long. haha. chocolate's really one of the best medicines that distresses your mind. if you know me well, you'd probably know im super temperamental. if i dont eat the chocolate, i'll probably die starving.

sometimes i just hate being at 'home'. heh, to even notice that the word home was supposed to be something that you were from. just that, for me, i dont have the sense of belonging here. that's probably why i'd rather keep myself out of the house. it's not like they notice me when i'm inside the house-why stay inside when i'd rather be out? out doesnt mean shopping or stuffs like that ya know, like really just stay out side just for the sake of not being at home. even if i get bored, i'll go find a place where i can be alone and just do my homework.

or when i know i have to buy dinner myself or, better still eat outside. life's been going like this. there are times when i wish things wasnt like this(like what i had been having when my grandma was around, but she left like..yesterday). but i think i got used to it. scrouching food myself.

i just read my brother's blog a few hours ago(when i just woke up). he seem to be, different. in a way or another, i hope he's getting more matured. just reading his blog really make me miss him-like alot. =(. if i were to be out of singapore, would it be better? sometimes i ask myself. i can start highschool in america. but, would it be better? for now, i really like life in singapore. maybe its just the thought of leaving all my friends and all the memories here. i've been in singapore for more then half of my life. that's why every single memory is kept within the era. haha. if i was a person who moves alot.. i think that'd be a different story-right?

anyways...come to think of it, i think what'd be best is to stay in a house only with my brother around in singapore. yeah. i really want to stay with my bro, he knows what i feel and want, and i know what he feels as want. you know why? because we have the same feelings and we desire the same stuffs in life.

its not that i dont love my dad, its just that i dont have this bond with him. maybe because he's always out of singapore most of the time. but hell, it's perfectly fine with my sister. thats probably another reason why my sister and him are so close. i just, cant click with them you know?.. i miss my bro. sigh.

i dont know if im satisfied with life now, but sometimes i am happy you know. i mean, yeah. i really dont know, i really cant imagine if life is worse then this. i should just be happy about it right? but then again. what if, i could be happier? would… soul-searching... help?

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2006-08-04T20:48:00.000+08:00

performed twice. going to perform for ndp parade thingie so. damn tired. haha. today band ended kinda early so i decided to go to primary school to help out.

and guess what?bad luck for me. they were polishing! boring right. lol. den met sundae. damn funny. ate dinner with him. bill was 40 bucks. and i didnt bring alot of money, so i only paid 10. LOL. SO SORRY. ahhaha. gna treat you nxt time lah xD. yeap, and as you said, with nick too! =P

ok, the new blogskin was done by me(like duh xD). its not that i like pink. but i think that black , gray and white kinda mix with pink. oh well. something new everyday! =/ haha

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2006-08-04T00:25:00.000+08:00

band for the whole week. wtf right. hahaha. -.----------. tml need to perform, TWICE again. den practice frm 1~4. hopefully they cancel it cos ITS REALLY TIRING. and im not even sleeping now. hahha. luckily tml no lesson. so it wont be that bad. oh well.

yeap, life's hard. we just have to accept the way it is eh? oh well. all i've got to say now is, i promise. and i do love you so. <3

2006-08-02T21:03:00.000+08:00

sigh. today's ms yeow last day. sad right? she's the best teacher ever. well after mr firhad(since he's not bias at all. and a real good teacher. hahaha). today school was OK. maths test really sucked. science test got 18/30(not that satisfied). then.. ms.lim suddenly asked all the main band players who went for the NBC(national band competition) to see her after school.

she just wanted to listen lah. den she said we perform for TOMORROW's night graduation night & founder's day (both lower and upper sec).sian. haha. i'll be so late tomorrow! and i'll have to bring my vest. =(. bought the bloody black shoes i needed cos im peforming(never liked it =.=). sian.

ballet .. it's not that i dont like it. jus that sometimes i really want to rest or study for my upcoming tests. oh well. =/

that's it for today i guess. im so happy the week's ending. but wth, soon after that mondays will eventually come. =/

my brother? yes, i miss him. but i cant do a thing right. seemed like he added me in msn. but the time difference.. really cant talk to him, (so far, not even once). i hope he reads my blog and takes care of himself =/. oh well. <3

2006-08-01T19:48:00.000+08:00

tiring day. must finish my art piece by thursday and pass up =/. bcos ms yeow wants joshua and my poster to be in the fairfield musical booklet. haha. cool right? but damn tiring. had to stay back for half an hour for art class(wanted to finish it. but teacher not satisfied with smth, den after we modified he became more pissed and asked us to bring home and do lol)

For IT, mr lee said i should join competitions outside my CCA. woots. cool right. hahaha. for web designing, etc. etc. xD. hehe. want cash, want cash! xD

bah, anyways..for band today...band got new fanfare piece. (for ms lim? wtf right. hahha xD) the sun was shining so brightly and the weather was SO humid. luckily we were under the shade xD. but poor mr.sim had to perspire like hell! *sigh*. oh well. ended at 6:30

reached home at around 7+ and ate dinner. finished dinner at 7.35+ and now blogging+chatting. going to revice some maths that im so blur about(cos tml got maths COMMON test :S) and then do the art. not sure what time im going to sleep tonight T.T. i already have like thick big panda eyes lah. zzzz.

supposedly meet tim liew today, but i had the stupid ndp rehearsal. =(. sigh. oh well. looking forward to thursday =D. this friday got band practice also... =|. luckily due to this they cancelled the next friday's band practice. oh btw, today mr sim said that its not worth it to pay money and be taught by TKWO(tokyo kosei wind ochestra) cos it'll be big group, AND cos it will effect 1 study skills for the sec 3s. you know what i think? i think that they're just crappin' at first. really just becos my principal is super bias and really ONLY thinks about academic stuffs. i mean i bet she doesnt know any shit about TKWO. she was frm choir! pffffttttt. so sad it's cancelled. SIGH. oh well. whattya know? im in fairfield -.-

damn damn damn unsatisfied with my english paper. sigh. usually get highest. now it seems like im going to get a C5 or C6. sigh...

2006-07-31T21:32:00.000+08:00

lol. i have crazy classmates. like elizabeth, who pulled my skirt to let everyone see my undergarment (thanks alot babe, lol. wtf xD). eunice my bitch who always bite me and touch mah boobies or punani, or maybe suan fong or ester who slaps my arse! xD. not to mention they're ALL GIRLS. LOL. im like this magnet who attracts everyone eh? even the same gender. lmao.

today band was wth lah. we tried playing the merry widow. too bad jonathan and i didnt have the score(dont ask why, trust me, you dont wanna know). its so difficult to must know everything my seniors know cos i was never taught that in primary school. sigh =(.

oh well! tml need to stay back to do ndp rehearsal. sian. too bad they wont be playing the whole song. kinda like em. =D. hehe. esp the trio for rainbow breeze march.

life's getting better and better each day. now playing in qRO. lvl 40 thief. more time for friends, for dating and for every other things. hahaha. <3

2006-07-30T15:37:00.000+08:00

its just those point of time when the individual realizes all her mistakes. and regret. at the point of time when she realizes how bad she was, how unworthy she was and how much forgiveness she was given.

from the mistakes i will say, is where i learn all my lessons. as long as i dont do it again, everything will be better each day. i wish i was more matured because if you think i'm immatured, i totally agree. all you guys have all the reasons to say that. hahaha.

like this point of time when like, you just appreciate everything that revolved around you-which is not actually even supposed to happen.. but for every happening, there's a reason for it. like whatever mistakes i've done, whatever lessons i've learnt. whatever ups and downs i've gone through. all the happiness and all the sadness felt. its all coming together now.

all i have to do is just find the missing pieces. all i have to do now is just figure the reasons.

to my schoolmates (and those who reads this), i'll probably be quiet for a while okay? i'm sorry. if you know me a lil, i kinda like the silence sometime. and right now, that's probably the period when i just want to keep quiet. im just doing some soul-searching for a while.

you dont have to care what happens to me, or do what i expect you to do. i know the world doesnt revolve around me. i just have to go through with it myself, whatever happens. so yeah. you have all the reasons to not listen to anyone.

im not trying to be a bitch and get expectations from everyone. noone's perfect and life sucks. im just trying to sink it in. sink the hardships and painful sides of life, and yet still be happy with it. i just need time before i get everything now. i know there are things which are already getting in in my life. just time my friend. yeap, just time before i get everything i need to know.

2006-07-29T23:41:00.000+08:00

why now kor, why when i realize that family is the most important people in my life?why kor, why cant i fix it at all? why cant i do anything to make you stay? why kor, why does life sux so much? why do i miss you so.

why am i not accepted by so many people kor? why am i closest to you?

for real now people, i think im the person who took it the hardest.well at least for my family i think i was the one who took it the hardest.its never nice to walk alone when you're in the same family.its never nice to not have anyone walk beside you and talk to you all of the time.its not nice when you dont have anyone who cares for you and send you to the doctor.its not nice when there's nobody to look out for when you want advice or a listening ear.

when you hugged me in the airport, i just didnt want to let go.i felt warmth i hadnt been feeling for a very very long time.your words encouraged my tears to stop for a while.your 2 kisses on my forehead made me happy and whole.

im so sorry that i dont spend enough time with you.i wish i did. i really regret my mistakes.thanks for being there when i needed you. you taught me alot of lessons.

i hope you good. i hope you do well. i hope you make us proud.

2006-07-29T17:34:00.000+08:00

"To my youngest sister: Damnit, I'll miss you. You really remind me of me, and you're a fine nice sister, given a horrible brother. Catch up with me when you get older, then I'll visit you from time to time, alright? During holidays. Take care, please. If you really have something you think you REALLY think I can give a better answer than mommy, daddy, or sis, just drop me a mail, and I'll write you back. Damn don't screw yourself in there."

I LOVE YOU. PLEASE TAKE CARE. I REALLY MISS YOU. PLEASE DO, PROMISE ME YOU'LL TAKE CARE. DONT DISSAPOINT ME. AND WHATEVER SHIT YOU SAID ON TOP, IS THE EXACT SAME WAY I FEEL. PLEASE TAKE CARE! I LOVE YOU! =(. sob

wth right. i cried last week. i almost cried during band just thinking of him, i cried at night time, i cried in the morning, i cried in the taxi to the airport, i cried in the airport, i cried in the mrt going home and im still crying.

never take things for granted. he's probably my clone. lol.

2006-07-29T10:58:00.000+08:00

good bye my brother,good bye my love.

i will miss you so, and so will everyone else. so better take the hell care out of yourself. dont slack anymore, you're 18, you big fat adult. get a life and work hard for your future. mom and dad put so much work just trying to get you to America. so you better dont take it for granted. I love you.

take care.
your sister, keren.

2006-07-28T22:22:00.000+08:00

music class-damn funny. i had to dance so many kinky moves (well i AM originally kinky so :P) to save my team from getting a 'C' for dance catgory. cos we were judged with our singing, dancing and acting. haha. funny!

band-tiring. national day practice. sigh. and i had alot of doubts and thoughts during band. heartached.

brother leaving tomorrow to Goshen(a suburb in america). damn sad. sigh. he's the closest family member to me. oh well. i just wish him good luck . =(

2006-07-27T19:16:00.000+08:00

i want the correct loving i deserve and need.

2006-07-26T16:58:00.000+08:00

ok. the band was REALLY ROCKIN' IT GOOD! :D. haha. damn fun. there were like 3 oncores(wtf right. LOL). after the concert caspar and cacelia left first. then amelia, justin, caroline, janet and i ate some leftover food. hahahha. damn nice.

ok. somehow, i have this short term memory lost that i forgot what kinda happened yesterday. lol. really. anyways. school's just OK OK. boring as usual.

i really forgot what i wanted to post. LOL. so to make this post "live-lier", i'll just post random things. things you prolly wont know that i do. lol.

ok. i've dated at least 2 guys, all ageing 5 years older then me. I was severly overweight last time and my favourite icecream flavour is vanilla. LOL. i know damn random lah. wth. dno wht else to post. i mean its not like you know im like that right?xD

2006-07-24T20:33:00.000+08:00

lol.. ok. Yesterday, the house warming lasted for about 3 hours(kinda long huh?). i helped ok. and all i get was "dont just sit there and eat. help us out! you're a shame.".. haha. how thankful. i dno wtf am i appreciated for in my house. sigh.

ok, i have a father who doesnt even know i had a birth mark on my right shoulder, a mother who hangs up on me, a brother who's leaving Singapore and an ex-bf who still..likes me? wtf. sigh. that's how screwed up my life is right now :(.

ok. after church went to bugis.ate at pasta mania (rocked :3. lovin' italian food. ahaha)... bro needed to cut hair. bought lip balm(cos i need one REAL BADLY), 1 ulcer medicien (12 bucks.. -.-) and hairband/clip for school. then i met ms.ong half way. wth. haha, i think i saw her boyfriend too! and all her other cheena friends. haha. wth lah. i hate chinese. pffft.

morning morning. i hate monday mornings. only reason cos i love band, thats why i have a reason to live out mondays in school. ok, the whole lesson was boring. as in like really the whole 6 hours of school was BORING. english test was really damn easy. science was really just revision. history is as always boring( i did my own self-studying on history during history class. i understand so much more with just reading on my own. louzy noobish teacher -.-)

band was fun, as always. caroline wants to go for the concert tml. so yeah, since I LOVE HER, AND SINCE IM NICEEEE =X. im peiing her. 20 bucks lah. wth. -.- xD. haha. kinda looking foward to it. thursday got history test though. den wednesday got ting xie. lotsa shit. haha. =/. Leroy couldnt make it cos of the tests :(. oh well! im just being nice to caroline. rofl. <3 you babe :D. i love fsb! xD.

BIG MEANIE LEROY STUFFED THE CLOTH INSIDE MY EUPHO DURING BAND. PFFFT *RARRR*. lol. thanks alot fag, you really make me laugh. YOU MAKE ME THE HAPPIEST. HAPPY!? damit. rofl. you.. fag =o=. gg *punch punch* <3 :D

2006-07-22T19:14:00.000+08:00

OMG. SO TIRED! OMG =.=.

yesterday, school for 12 hours(that's HALF A DAY). celebrated ong tee hoe's birthday. ms sia same b'day but she wasnt there so. yah. den straight to sp to change my clothes and have dinner at mcdonalds with hafiz and his friend. den go to acsi for battle of the bands. screaming, dancing, shouting and everything else. haha. DAMN TIRED even though it was only 10pm!

this morning woke up at 6(this means i only slept for 5 hours.wtf) den reach bukit timah primary school at 7.20 to not miss the band play. lol. they suck =/. esp the eupho... heh. i heard mr.wong and mr.lim wants to arrange a eupho solo for me. den everyone else play. haha. shiok! xD. tunzun and meldon are real good players(i wish they come fsb! xP) haha.

after that met mr effandi(cool dude), ALOT of MY GOODIE GOODIE FRIENDS FRM BTPS, and den sundae. sundae kinda showed me a few cool band songs. gna ask and look for it some other time. haha. at approximately 12, i left the school and went to Clementi by 173 alone. damn tired so i fell asleep in the bus. reached at 12.15. took train to somerset and reached at..1? haha. den met meeelliiissssaaaaaaaaaa(supposedly with leroy also, but he couldnt make it . :((( sob!!)

Ate lunch with melissa at cafe cartle(cinilesuire), bought 2 presents(one for nicholas ng, the other for eunice kuek my bitch). melissa and i finally found a florist at center point. she bought 3 roses(for her friends who were gna perform outside heeren-cool right?;p). [btw, the performance is called TAPESTRY]

i watched their performance(melissa's church friends'). damn nice! haha. really! :}. much better then the previous bands who could only scream and scream and scream! >.
When i was watching the performance, i accidentally met franky(my church friend), he was also going to youth class so yah. xP. we went together. took bus 7 frm lucky plaza and went to bugis. den walk to north bridge center to have our youth class.
youth class was OK lah. i mean, i was DAMN TIRED and i was like half asleep. almost dozzed off. wth >.<.. damn damn damn tired.

almost met hafiz after youth class but couldnt make it. too tired. *sorry man! :(*. haha. den went home.when i reached home, den i saw .. chairs. wth. lol. you know, those wedding dinner the red chairs and all. den i remember tml got house warming (oh yah, btw those who dno i moved to block 7 :D. same place. haha. retarted right?LOL. just more spacious lah. hahaha). sian lah. -.-

so this is it. after this post , maybe i'll eat a lil and den SLEEEP SOUNDLY on my COSY BED <333. MUUACKS :D.

2006-07-19T17:35:00.000+08:00

you probably wont understand if you're not close to me. =/. okay, whatever.

i open my textbook and i doodle.
i stare into the sky and i wonder.
i look into the clock and i sigh.
i wear my uniform with a rush.
and i shout things without thinking.
i cry my heart out when school ends.

i drag myself to wake up.
i drag myself to school.
but once school's over...
its like as if there's nothing to do.
walking home alone was lonely.
and the path was open to another person.
the heavy bag was uncomforting.
and i just had to live with it.

eating is now my problem.
so is taking medicine.
or playing games.
or anything else.

everything just seem to move so fast.
why cant anyone give me a break.
i hate tests and i want love.
i seem so different without love.
i seem so different without confidence.
i seem so different when im happy.
i seem so different when i tear.

i zip my bag after every period.
and wishing everything would end.
i see the clock ticking,
and i just had to bare.

i needed and wanted a hug badly.
but i just couldnt get it.
i had love and care.
and now all i feel is the misserable guilt.
what am i good for.

Poem01

2006-07-17T23:40:00.000+08:00

You might never knew that i always made poems.. i just made one about love recently. i hope you guys like it. <3 :)

What is Love?
Whats is Love?
what is true Love?
I wonder and I always ask myself.

When I think of you,
I'll always feel the warm zeal.
When I dream of you,
My hope comes to life again.
When I see you playing the piano,
I want to squeeze you tight.

When you touch me,
My heart will melt like chocolate.
When I touch you,
My heart will hammer softly.
When I'm with you,
All my dilemma is gone.

When I've fallen in Love,
I've fallen for you.

2006-07-17T20:21:00.000+08:00

LEROY THE ASSHOLE, YOU MAKE ME LAUGH! STUPID FAG.
HAFIZ, FUCKER, THANKS ALOT. I'LL SMILE FOR YOU.
MELLISSA, MAKE LOVE TO ME.
MY BITCH EUNICE, I LOVE YOU.
MY BITCH CARINA, YOU ROCK MY WORLD.

i love this people. <333333333333

LOL.
(G)reat
(A)chievement
(Y)ear

and FREE WAXING FOR WHOEVER WANTS IT. !

i dno wtf am i posting. lol. its for my own preference. and those who understands me. ;p. this is a public blog. heheheheheh.

What am i to you? - Norah Jones <3
What am I to you
Tell me darling true
To me you are the sea
Fast as you can be
And deep the shade of blue

When you're feeling low
To whom else do you go
See I cry if you hurt
I'd give you my last shirt
Because I love you so

If my sky should fall
Would you even call
Opened up my heart
I never want to part
I'm giving you the ball

When I look in your eyes
I can feel the butterflies
I love you when you're blue
Tell me darlin' true
What am I to you

Yeah well if my sky should fall
Would you even call
Opened up my heart
Never wanna part
I'm giving you the ball

When I look in your eyes
I can feel the butterflies
Could you find a love in me
Could you carve me in a tree
Don't fill my heart with lies

I will you love when you're blue
Tell me darlin' true
What am I to you
What am I to you
What am I to you

2006-07-15T21:19:00.000+08:00

IM PROUD AND I LOVE FSB, SO I DONT GIVE A SHIT ON WHAT YOU THINK ABOUT FSB.

FSB is prolly the ONLY thing i look forward to in school. nvm, so what if we got a silver? it was a very close match. i dont blame anyome, cos ONE FOR ALL, AND ALL FOR ONE! <3. who cares la har. nxt year get Gold with Honours lor! :). im that confident <3.

im SO PROUD that we improved ALOT. thanks to Mr Sim and Ms Lao, i really love and appreciate the both of you.. :).

I LOVE MY EUPHONIUM, COOKIE. but i dont mind getting a new one. rofl. xD. I WISH WE GET NEW EUPHOS BEFORE SYF NXT YEAR. i want 3! for Leroy, jonathan and i. hehehe. i love all of them. Leroy, Melissa, Jasime, Jonathan, Jia Rong, Caspar, Amos and everyone else. i just love them so much <3333333333333333.

2006-07-13T23:09:00.000+08:00

hahaha. i love my band seniors can,espcially leroy. that funny shit. xD. today in band mr.sim asked us to dance with the music. den leroy did a small wave with his hands. den lmao, i asked him and jonathan to let all the euphos do it. damn funny can. we were the only ones. rofl. xD. i love em so much <333. i will miss em so so much :(.

school's tiring... tests nxt weeks. :(. so many tests. haha. sian ><.. yeap. thats all. i came to post because of the previous pharagraph. dont wanna forget it. damn fun la. ahhaha i love fsb so much much :D. i think our band improved!

i hope we get a GOLD in our competition this saturday<3. good luck all :3

2006-07-09T23:05:00.000+08:00

i know its been a long time since i've posted... monday i went to sentosa with my primary school frineds(joyce, eddie, jason(joyce and eddie's bro), laurence, alan, kc and janelle). it was fun. too bad i became sick because of it. *sunburnt*. didnt go to school for 2days. it was super bad.

days had been tiring.. the only reason i came to school on thursday was because of band. i love band and i love my eupho and i love the people who're close to me in band-i have more than enough reasons to attend band :). oh yes, and the competition is coming up...

at times i think i am misjudged. maybe because those people dont really know me. at times i really wonder who even reads my blog. haha, what if my teacher reads it. its pretty scary and freaky. so really.. i just wanna keep myself look 'normal' in here. just to be posted on what happened :).

went to NJC concert yesterday. it really rocked. i went with carl. met leroy and joey his friend. couldnt meet sufrie/caroline/jessica and the rest cos i had to eat dinner(we were late so we ate dinner after the concert..which is like 10pm -_-"). haha. the concert rocked. *good job, tim liew! <3*. oh, one of the coolest thing is that i saw my primary school band ic teacher in the alumni. she rocked :). hehehe.

im thinking of what to do with my life. i know im only sec 1. but i think i'm not like the rest.. i really think ahead. i think i'll be majoring music and art after i graduate middle school.. if im concentrating on fashion design i'll go to france. music will be germany and web design is prolly australia or maybe america. i really dont know. i just wanna see how it goes. i know my interests might change overtime too.

my brother is going to america by the end of the month. its really sad. i hope to see him again soon. *which i think i will not :(*. he's really special to me. really one of the closest people to me in my whole family.. <33 i will miss him, alot :(.

as i said, the competition for band is coming... so i really want to do good in it. i think i've improved, i think everyone did.. well hopefully xD. but i can really see that we improved. im really happy that we did. im so proud of our hard efforts, but all i think about now is improving more :).

okay now to continue with my cyber life.. i made a new guild (called ownage) in F-Ro. whoever is in fro and wishes to join please pm Rinn or Noble. i'm thinking of making a guide for highpriests and priests. since i always help them. i think it'll do them good :). i might not be a big help..but at least i try ^^.

hehe, ok. big day tomorrow. oh, not to mention im sick again. hahaha. but i wanna go for band, and school.. dont wanna miss lessons if not i'll get so frustrated trying to catch up on everything :(.

ok. thats about it. one week of no posting. i know it seems long but.. haha. if anyone even bothers to read it..why not xD. i'll be playinga lot of RO so i wont post alot.. :). i hope u guys understand <3. i'll post once a week now. ^^. it might be long it might be short, its really depending on how busy i am..or how lazy i am . hahahah. xD.

2006-06-26T22:27:00.000+08:00

IF THIS WASNT THE PUBLIC BLOG, I WOULD BE SWEARING RIGHT NOW. OMG?

OMG. I HATE #@!*$)#(@*#@)!. EVERYTHIGNA BOUT IT. OMG!

2006-06-25T22:21:00.000+08:00

WATCHED GARFIELD 2 THE ORANGE PUSSIE. HEH HEH. SOME CUTE CAT CAN. lmao. :D. hehe.

ok. i bought new shoes! for a new term! yay xD. hoho. converse double tounge. inside pink(since no other color) otuside white :D. damn comfy! weeee.. so happy can. haha

carl got a new shoe too. a double tounge but long cut, brown color. and he bought like so many shirts can! hehehe. can see that he's happy!

im getting fatter! and nxt week cfm check height and weight. sian

2006-06-25T01:02:00.000+08:00

um. today went shopping. homework so called finish. exp for brochure(which i will have to approach my teacher first). and then chinese. because my mom threw away my chinese newspaper. great. haha -.-

bought new dress. my mom paid it for me! so exp siah. hahaha. espirit dress! i love it :D

alright. lalalalala.

2006-06-23T01:32:00.000+08:00

um, really i cant take it anymore. someone save me.

if i transfer out, will i pick band?
if i pick band will it effect me?
i love band, i hate the school.
but is it all up to a waste?
someone tell me what to do

i see my future as only a black sheet of paper,
when i use to have a big plan ahead of me.
teenage confusion? haha. lmao. c0rny!

2006-06-12T22:33:00.000+08:00

i wish there were ways to express myself. i wish there were words to explain what i feel, think and want to say. i wish there were more to myself.

nothing much during this days.today went back to school to pratice for about 4 hours and brought back my instrument. i think i improved. =)

a simple poem? hmm.

how can i express this to words.
this passion i feel for you.
the one that will die for you.
and live for you.
you are my hope.
you lift me up.
you make me smile.
and you make me whole.
i wish you knew how i felt.
i promise i will never leave you,
like i said before.
it is impossible for us to break apart,
because this feeling had been with me,
since forever and forevermore.

i promise.
i love you

2006-06-10T09:26:00.000+08:00

LOVE HURTS.
dont you agree?

i do.. nevermind, back to topic.

1 week of camp, very tiring! first was leadership and the next day straight away band camp. leadership camp rawked =). esp the part we had the friendship dance. everyone almost danced with everyone else. most awkward but most memorable was with Leroy, haha, stupid guy. i dno. i treat him more den just a brother. maybe i cherish people close to me. :D. carina's my stupid bitch, my girl! =P. u can really notice that i say these vulgarities.. but they dont mind. hehh, maybe thats why im with them, dont u think so?nvm, dont judge me cause i say much vulgarities when u dont know me-because hardly anyone does.tim's nice cos he doesnt really get offended whenever i call him gay. haha.

oh wow, this sounds as if im drawing out all the friends i love. i like the silence of the solitude i have. i like the feeling of alone. but sometimes... just sometimes it acts as if it's just killing me inside out.

sigh. =). nvm! hehe. back to topic, i shouldnt say my personal stuff here. well at least i dont want to. lol. =Ppp. i dno who's reading and stuff! xD. okay, um, very tiring la. cousin just got married a few days or weeks ago den ytd night had a family dinner with relatives. later got lunch to celebrate their wedding.isnt true love beautiful?

i love band. i think the best part of the camp was relfections. it did a big part. and it really was an eye-opener for me. made me realize how much i love band la. haha.

2006-06-04T21:29:00.000+08:00

im supppppppppppppppppeer tired! today went to sentosa to perform. SO SO SO tired la! haiyo.. den tml leadership camp =o-"... den after that got ballet class.. the nxt day straight away band camp! gawd! its like i no time to do homework!

1 week's gone! Sigh. time sure pass bys(only holidays tho). i am SO NOT looking forward to school. another 10 weeks of hell!? argh. and den after that must concentrate cause gna have end-of-year exam. sigh. since this is my blog, this is what i think. i think my school depends too much academically, many of my friends and i who are chosen to go to the school through DSA really have difficulties catching up with the peers. =(

if i evn bother to post again, it'll probably be about the camps. oh well.

2006-05-22T20:52:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAHA. it's been SO SO LONG since i've posted. pfft. well at least im not as bad as leroy =X. kekeke.. got band camp and leadership camp during the 2nd week.. wth... monday to wed got leadership camp. the nxt day start band camp. gay can >.> lolx..worse still.. BOTH DOING DRAGON BOATING. WTH ><>
lol. okay nvm. im kinda excited, cos i have this temptation to screw everything up! kekekeke.. so many homework! esp english! SHO MANY. buay tahan.. english got so many sial.. =(. science project gna do with Joshua ang. (not a bad partner ya?x3 LOL.) oh ya.. class position got 22.. wth right. hahah. lvl position 140. ><.. oh well =(.

oh ya, ytd i bang my knee to a metal thingie(hard to xplain). now its blue-black :D. i know im a super super super SUPER careless and clumsy person. im always trying my best to balance during ballet class! x3. hehehehe.

this week got dumpling festival art competition... wth right. sounds so gay. hahah i just want the cash la. i want 100 bucks! weee. so i can get a new bag or smth! :D. lol. or a shoe... argh, anything will do! just need and want the cash! gahorhaoehaoehao :D .

life's been hard!!!!!!!! woot. but im so happy that the holidays are coming. i might go to Kuala Lumpur with my relatives who are coming to SG! think on the last week of the holidays. so i must train my priest to high priest, do all my homework, go to sentosa if can, exercise more, go on a diet. hahaha. im so fat man, wth ><

ooh well, i think this post will keep u updated on wht im gna do for the few weeks. =) and what i had done on the past weeks. so tired. hahah. later do homework den sleep! tml last day. wooot, so happy. hahahha. =) . HAPPY HOLIDAYS PEEPZ

*oh ya, classmates-please go to new blog... http://1c-fmss06.blogspot.com, Must go hor! x3*

2006-05-08T20:59:00.000+08:00

lol. i sure do love volleyball! =3. weeee. hahha. oh yeah, i bought a new handbag today. i think its kinda big, but the rest really suxed x3. its grayish with brown flowers or smth... bleagh ><...

met alot of friends today. and hell yesh, im so happy. no band. waehoaehaoheoahoe :D. roxors! im so tired nowadays. still kinda sick and yet im still going to school! prolly cos of the stupid tests. haha. i hate being the chairman... sian.

my sickness? my cheeks still do hurt. sigh. i .. am starting not to like my life more. i get so pushed and stressed in school... my mom.. gives me attention when i dont want it, and doesnt give it when i desire for it. friends? hahha. its still the same.

i feel as if, if i write a book. it would be a boring one. im so tired nowadays. sigh. i cant wait for ballet... believe it or not i just love ballet >.>.. well i love dancing.. lolx. i just want the days to end earlier. im SO happy that its only 3 weeks away to the mid year holidays. *yay. finally a BREAK, i so need one*

this thursday to saturday got church camp. will not be able to post cos im staying overnight there. at the NACLI at buona vista or smth. who cares abt the spelling.. haha. i cant wait... sigh, SO TIRED!

past few days

2006-05-05T19:08:00.000+08:00

lolx. its been a LONG LONG time since i post. xD. kinda lazy to post nowadays.. heh... i must make a new 1c Blog.. sian ><... i think i will need moderators... make a forum too.. hmm. we'll see la. if anyone in 1c reading this(and wants to be moderator) please e-mail me. u guys have to update or check the forum/blog at least twice a week. it's encouraged that you only go for one. (forum/blog). blog, i will need people who are good or at least know HTML well. For moderators in the forum, u guys just have to come back and check. eg, spams, vulgarities, comments, etc. the forum .. i would really appreciate if i can get 4 people for the forum and for the blog, i would really like to get at least 3..maximum 6. (both including me.)

moderators who are not active, will be kicked out. i will take the votes of the peeps in the class and the other moderators based on the blog/forum. Designers who can design well(knows how to use Photoshop ver.7) are welcomed to produce designs for both sites , but not be a moderator.

why make blog/forum? news that are needed for anyone to know will be put there. usually in forums. blogs will have diary entries of the class during that day. (we might not post everyday) photos would probably go inside the blog. :D

okay, enough of the class stuffs. now to MY entry >.> heh.

school? its pretty alright... life is well and i love my psp. rofl. thts all. really. lolx. its a public blog... i wont post much xD. as to leroy, ENJOY UR STAY IN PULAU UBIN.. REMEMBER THAT I'M ENJOYING LIVE IN SINGAPORE WITH MY BELOVED PSP, COMPUTER AND BED! MWAHAHAHHAHAHAH. DIE U EVIL EVIL THING!.. hehe. im just happy i still have 2 years to go for outward bound. HOhO HOhOhHOHo :D

2006-04-28T18:38:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME
to lazy to post! COS IM TOO HAPPY. I JUST WANNA SAY BIG BIG THANKS FOR THOSE WHO'VE GIVEN ME ALL THE BEAUTIFUL PRESENTS AND ALL WHO WISHED ME A HAPPY BIRTHDAY. LOVE YALL. WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. *off to go unwrapped the birthday prezzies*. OUT TO DINE TODAY. HIP HIP?HURRAY!

2006-04-25T21:13:00.000+08:00

the marks from the latest geography test brings shame upon me. i shall never fail geography again, ever... i felt bad because im the chairman and i dont even set a good example, sigh... die lor.

must STUDY STUDY STUDY. no ro until thursday! den the next next week got test. wth. always got test wan leh.. sigh. so tiring. and im having body aches EVERYWHERE due to the napfa test i took yesterday, SURE HURTS ALOT..

oh yeah, like my new skin...? i've decided to give away FREE blogskins for the first 3 people who wishes me a happy birthday on my birthday. it MUST be on my birthdate though :3. so those who doesnt know..oh well, bad luck for you =X

thursday got home econs and geography EXAM man. sian. i think D&T will be more boring than Home econs, but i think i can so do much better in D&T( i mean DUH. lol ). I think i will like history. i dont know man... i know geog and history is basically reading and studying... but i find interest in reading about history... geography is easy... if you study lah. but it's totally boring can >.>...

sigh... im super broke now. oh well. must see if anyone wanna buy any blogskin. only sold 3 so far.zzzz.. today ate lunch in orchard with Carina, den studied geog abit.oh , i ate at lido(taco bell) while she ate in mcdonalds food. =D. den after that went to wheelock to pei her get her ipod. after that go home. so tired! must sleep early today. should go to school early tml. so can study before geog starts! (and geog is the first period T.T...). oh crap, i must go to lead and go through IT.. sian =[

2006-04-24T18:47:00.000+08:00

YAY. nat already given me an early birthday present.. my sist too! both pencil box. xD sister: roxy. nat: happy house. haha, these sweet girls...

today did napfa... think i can get gold :3. hEEEE. today i was the only lower sec girl... zz... aiya, stupid keyboard.. turns off my mood lolx

2006-04-19T21:49:00.000+08:00

Rofl. its been a while! lol. okay, veRy long time. my keyboaRd is scRewed. my keyboaRd cant type 'R'. this is why i am using 'R' all the time, instead of the small letteR. i just copy and paste when i need to use the letteR 'R' T.T.. sigh.

had been sick these past few days. *i think whoeveR is in my school and aRe close to me knows that...*... had been busy with schoolwoRk. i know im going to scoRe good in he cReative wRitting foR my lit. but i also know that i will depRove.

did fouR houRs of hw in KAP today. so tiRed. sigh. tml got band summoRe =(... no time lah. sigh. oh well. i think i MIGHT change my blogskin. soon though. afteR i have fRee time oR when i want a bReak fRom hw-ing ><

2006-04-06T18:50:00.000+08:00

sianz. just finished eating dinner(soya beancurd + popiah). very full. had been having consecutive fever for the past 2 days. sigh. i wanna play dota but i think i must study! i kinda screwed up in the maths common test, and i suck at home econs. IT test also sucked. but i know i should probably get A1 with my designs and html knowledge :D.

tml home econs and geography test. read thru geog just now in bus but fell asleep half way! xD. today band ended later den what it should be (as always). ended at like 6:50 instead of 6:30. gah, i really really dislike the instructors, not because they're not fat or anything... opps. =X. haha! xD. kidding lah. :]. i just dont like the way they teach, i wish mr JEREMY lim was conducting us =(. hikz.

ballet class was okay, got 2 new comers who saw me. think they're already 17+ or something. THEY TOT I WAS SEC 4. HAHAHAH. OWNAGE! XD

2006-04-04T20:29:00.000+08:00

TIRED

><... hmm.. didnt even have time to post yesterday. today wanted to go orchard to buy my ballet shoes but got no time. had to stay back for 15 minutes after school(which ended late by like 25 minutes) to do my english cos i couldnt finish it in class.

learnt poetry through drama today, kinda fun. but i think the timing is really bad. superb long. lolx. tml must rush after school to get my ballet shoes cos after that got ballet class straight away!><... bleagh.

yeap, as you guys can see, im playing DotA now. :D. hehe. AND I STILL CANT WAIT TILL I GET A PSP ON MY BIRTHDAY. MWAHAHAHHAHAHA :D

24 more days to my birthday! :D

2006-03-31T22:13:00.000+08:00

ALSTON the "stupid".

there. i hope that helps you search my blog. since you said you cant find it from the google search anymore. heeeee. :D xD. and dont take the stupid part seriously lah. lol. i just wanted to emphasize how can you NOT go inside my blog. when you can at first xD

okay.. right now, i am still sick. thursday= tiring. ate dinner with carl, pizza hut. lover's splitzza ( chicken curry+hawaiin chicken ). drumlets. blahblah. hee. =).

friday... fever... almost vomitted out during home ec, but nobody realized cos i just kept quiet. sigh. band was totally retarted lol. mr ong decided that we should do 'TEQUILA' for the song piece for our baloon hat festival thingie =/. he made EVERYONE 'march' around the room ( in circles of course ). leroy and i really didn't make any effort and just kinda walked. lol. the only reason is because ms ng is there la. sianz. =/

2006-03-29T21:46:00.000+08:00

my point view for ballet:STREEEEEETCHHHHHHHH!

my point view of life: WITH GREATER JOB, COMES GREATER RESPONSIBILITY. WITH GREATER BEAUTY, COMES GREATER PATIENCE.

done.

2006-03-28T20:53:00.000+08:00

sunday was my brother's birthday!~ :D.. after church went to Sizzler and had steak+salad buffet , it was fantastic... heee.. anws, i had been sick these past few days. fever still comes and goes. but i WANT to go to school tml, to see how bad i did in my IT test ... sian.

gastric...synus..fever..sore throat... you name it. almost everything. lol. didnt go to school yesterday, didnt go for band ><... today came back to school.. looking very tired. sigh. i think im being less responsible each day... why? maybe because im tired. i think if i dont have this job, i have higher opportunities to score better results... what should i do?hmm...

yeap, life.. as complicated as it is

BIG BIG HAPPY BIRTHDAYS TO: MY BELOVED BROTHER KEVIN ONESIMUS MULIA on your 18th birthday, MY SWEET SWEET FRIEND MELISSA on your 14th birthday, MY CUTE LITTLE FRIEND ATHALIA on your 13th birthday. GOD BLESS!

2006-03-25T16:46:00.000+08:00

hmmm..thursday. didnt know i had to do shotput, anyways i did. lol. bought CCA shirt(finally got one) cause i didnt bring my PE shirt and it'll be much much more comfortable than uniform =//..

after the shotput competition, ate dinner with carl and den went home. tiring day. ^^"...

friday..classes as usual. and den ate lunch(yong tau fu) with chare(charmaine ong) at dover. went back to school to give ms tai the wheels book and lend chare to pay 10 bucks to her senior for some drama fund or smth . after dat went home, showered and change and den went to westmall with leroy to buy smth. after that met amos and sufrie*they were watching V for Vendetta and they said it rock. well amos was like all over the movie. hahaha*

after meeting them went to NUS and watch a concert. not bad lah. i'd give a... 7? well the guy who came rocked the whole place. (the fantastic trombonist)... yeah, well whatever. lol. reached home at 10:45~~

woke up at 8, drank swiss miss(very deliiciooouuus :D) and ate peanut butter bread. after that played bBall with my bro, sarah and my bro's friend rachel at around 3+. stomache pain. going to doctor later. probably going to check the ballet class in bukit timah plaza. might be taking ballet. MIGHT...

2006-03-22T20:40:00.000+08:00

my gosh. this past few days had been REALLY TIRING. im so happy for the sports heats so far my class got THIRD *YAY*... this week no CCA. cause having some sports heats or something... representing my class for 1.5km and shotput.

monday... was OK lah. class as pernormal. didnt know i had to stay back until 6 though! den went home at 7 and den do geog project for 2 longgggg hours. after that do the rest of homework(ended at 10.30) and den went straight to bed.*tired*

tuesday.. my goodness. homeworks just keeps on pilling up. i remembered that i couldnt finish everything. and i forgot to bring my Book A maths home... lolz. had to go to school earlier and do it =/... luckily i finished on time! xD. hehehe... literature i didnt read so i anyhow do... lol. but now i corrected it and everything's fine =D...

today..after school headed to KAP and den ate lunch (i took 1 hour to finish a student chicken mcnugget meal..xD). i met hafiz and his friend there. in Mcdonalds. den carl came and helped me with my homework. i did my homework for 2 hours.. den went to umm popular in bukit timah plaza and bought a new calculator. :D. went home. just finished playing bBall for 1 hour with my bro. gonna bathe now and den do more homework. kinda wanna sleep early. havent been having enough sleeps lately due to too many homeworks ><>< !... hehe. okayz. i'll stop here.. ^^

2006-03-19T20:49:00.000+08:00

friday, went to band. before going home ate dinner with Carl. Century egg porridge and the riceball with the soyabean drink or smth likedat =/...

saturday, woke up kinda late... went to youth class as pernormal. was late by 10 minutes. it was lovely's daddy who did the speech thingie. smth about Time=Life. yeap.. went home, my mom cooked. my mom hardly cooks. lol. food was nice, den play gb until about 2am. den slept.

sunday, left home at 11:45, went to orchard with carl. leroy couldn't make it. wanted to check out the shirt shop... not satisfied though lol. ate at 'sakura restaurant' or smth likedat.. den uh.. just walked around orchard. after that play 1 hr lan in cini, den walked to orchard boulavard and den took bus to church. church was fine, the preech was long(as usual.. lol). ate dinner with mom, sist, bro at Killiney coffee shop across beauty world.

holidays

2006-03-16T20:15:00.000+08:00

wednesday... went to watch a "DATEMOVIE" with Carl. movie was at 12:15. lasted for 1hr20mins. i would rate.. a 3? cause its just the plain laughs :D. hehe, yes, datemovie IS NC16.hawhaw xD... hehehehe.. after that just went home at evening and ate dinner.. :D.

thursday, woke up at 11. (i didnt know why. but i just realized i was sick.. :S). slept at 11 the previous night. reached school at 1. started having fever at 1:30. went home at 2. met carl for 'lunch' at 3.35. hang around with him for a while , rested for 2 hours and den just use the comp (as usual) ^^

monday and tuesday

2006-03-14T22:39:00.000+08:00

monday, basically woke went to band+ate dinner with amos and leroy after band at Dover(across school) ate kwey tiao(leroy's recommandation). not bad, might eat it again :D.

tuesday, morning woke up at 7, reached BUKIT TIMAH PRIMARY SCHOOL at 08:10 to teach the band. went home at around 10:40++. went home straight away change, go bus stop waited for the bus for 15 minutes. after which i arrived at plaza sing at 12. leroy already got the tickets for rumours has it. imagine a family which has 3 females(grandma,mother and daughter) who slept with the same guy! how INTERESTING is that. LoL... kinda funny :]. i give a 3.8/5 for it. i know my sister said big momma's QUITE funny but she just gave a 2.5/5 *hawhaw. i knew it would suck*. and screw shaggy dog as well... =.=. im planning to watch DATE MOVIE <3.. hehe. NC16? who cares! xD.

after movie, walked around the shopping mall for about half an hour or more. den went to cini by MRT to find carl. played LAN for 1 hour. Carl and I shared one comp. Leroy used 1 comp by himself. tralalalala. at 7:30 met my mom and sister for dinner at Ajisen Ramen. kinda expensive. =S... it was nice though.. i had 'kids set B' . laugh at me all you want. i already ate half a pancake and half of an XXL chicken about an hour ago before that. =.=... oh yeah, i bought pink shoe laces . i wonder if i can wear it to school. i think i can lah. who cares. its 70% white anyways..what can THEY do huh =/.. sianz.

walked around orchard after dinner. was trying to find my sister a school bag. she kinda requested for it... :s.. anything lah. lol. my b'day coming anyways. i feel like asking my sist to buy me a pencil box or something :D. hehe. whatever lah. i just want MONEY to buy a PSP. all hail PSP.

cambodia02

2006-03-12T22:44:00.000+08:00

bleagh.i think when we were in Poipet, we ate breakfast at the Casino Hotel. kinda nice. i mean whattya expect, western food:s...i think we went to Battambang from Poipet or something... den we went to a temple called 'Banon' 350 steps. kinda tiring. =s. not as tiring as a few other temples that is.. hahaha... den we stayed one night at battambang, the hotel wasnt that bad lah..

the next day we went head for Siem Reap straight away...and den i think we went to the artisan d'angkor though... :s.. some art school. after which you can just stay there and work for them*some people study and then pay their school fees after they work... pay little by little... poor thing...*

the day after that, we went to the orphanage to clean up the place... very dusty. and 'perform' a small 'performnace' haha. saw the children dancing the fishing dance... =). den after that go to some children center and help the sec 4s with their 'fence-making' for the children ... very tiring.. haha...

anyways i think the next day we went to the Floating Village on one of the days... the place is called Floating village cos every building is floating =D *d-oh :s*. i bought a dress for myself and a dress for my sister there. US$15.. bleagh. how expensive lah ><... ate seafood after that. i remembered i LOVED the Tom Yam. <333. i kinda cried that day. some misunderstanding. just needed privacy. sigh. i think i should've been more patient. but i think that everyone just have to accept each other more. and they should understand the needs of an individual if they asked for it. nevermind.

after that i think we went to climb a 350-steps-temple called Bayon to see the sunset. kinda tiring. went down by the Elephant trail. not allowed to sit on the elephants, probably cause its like how expensive lah..(15 US bucks up 10 US bucks down). after that dinner at a place which got a puppet show. food was OK =S. after dinner, we head back to the hotel , tired.

next day(yesterday) was one of the MOST MOST tiring day for the whole trip. because we had to visit SO MANY temples. i climbed to the top of the temple of Angkor Wat *the middle tower*. half of my group went up... kinda cool.. the breeze was nice :D. after that we went to the Old Market to get souveniers for our family members and all. shopped about 13 us bucks. =S... after that headed back to the hotel. i showered first and den cassandra showered. after which we went for Dinner in the hotel. some people who ordered beef had beef steak ... but yeah, i order chicken steak :s. its okay lah. i finished all the chickenz. didnt finish the potato =S. after that packed my lagguage and all ... den straight to the bed. <3

next morning(today), i woke up at 4:30am, since that was when the wake up call was. showered for a while, wear my clothes, wake cassandra up and den pack. after that had an early breakfast. the cereal ... i took 2 bowls man. cos today the cereal was how nice :3. with the berries and oat meal and all.. MOHOHOHOOHOHOHO <3 ^-^... den go to airport. had a slight delay of 20 minutes =S...

reached singapore at around 11:30. i was like the only person whose parent(s) not around. *again*. almost cried on the spot! =(... bleagh. waited for my mom for about 45 minutes and den ate lunch at the food court. i had rojak and fish ball noodles. afetr that we took a cab home. den met carl and gave him his souveniers. :]. den after that go church by cab.

today mr robin and mrs maria is in Singapore. they served my church 2 years ago but i think they were asked to be missionaries or something =S... it was nice seeing them again. well i know im probably gnna meet them again tml. they would probably be like how surprise to see how 'normal-looking' i am now. hahahah. oh well :s..after church my mom and went across the church and ate our dinner. my bro was eating with his church friends at the same place, different table. my sister just finished her camp(she's a councilor and she's helping with the sec 1s). yeap. den just stayed infront of my computer *as usual.. hehehehe :D*.

tml got band. i think im bringing my souveniers for bryan and mel and leroy tml ^^. probably gnna watch a movie too. den go for some church event or something.. bleagh. maybe on tuesday go play basketball or go out or something.. since its the holidays and I SO NEED TO RELAX FOR A WHILE =.=... bleagh. oh well. night people!

cambodia

2006-03-10T12:37:00.000+08:00

damn. im in cambodia now. im reaching Singapore on Sunday 11:10 am. cambodia is.. bleagh. loooong story. since i only have about an hour to use the computer(and i hv to like pay 3 US bucks cos im in the bloody hotel) , i shall only post about the 3 days. photos will be uploaded once i reach Singapore :D. i SO SO miss mom,kez,kev,carl,leroy,bryan and melissa.... =(

few friends ive made and grown closer to: Cassie, Nicholas, shreedhee, Elizabeth, William,Ivin, Scott and a few more people. tralalalala.

First day,everyone got a chance to wave their hands to their family members to say their goodbyes but my family members were having their breakfast! ><... i ate sandwich for 5 sing bucks(omg). cos i was bloody bloody hungry =/... anyways, after we reached Siem Reap province in Cambodia, we ate at the hotel's restaurant for a buffet breakfast.we went to the landmine museums. a museum which is only like uhh.. a 1 story only 200x200m square of land. =.-... very very hot. bought some mishappened bag for 3 us bucks. just wanted to donate some money. Aki Ra was a dude who openeded the landmind museum. lots of the people who lives there has either their arm gone or limb gone. sigh. so sad la. the pleace was dirty... as expected. =S then at the afternoon we went to a restaurant( Tonle Sap Restaurant) to have our lunch buffet. den we went back to the hotel to rest =D. yay.. xD.. wehaoehoaehoaheoa.. went to the gym for about 45 mins after my bath =S... dinner ate at some restaurant and watched a cultural dance. bleagh. went back to the hotel at around 9:30++. slept at 10+. oh and, i met this guy who briefed about the landmines . his name is Hak, he's 19 and he does not have a leg. he use crutches to walk man.. sigh. when he was 8, and his family and him was travelling(sister 14 brother 11) from Tonle Sap to Siem Reap, he accidentally stepped on a landmind. his brother and sister who was behind him died because of the landmind and thats when he lose one of his legs. his family now lives in Tonle Sap and he lives in the landmind museum. he feels fortunate to even live. im so happy that he is an optimistic. i kinda envy that he does. i've been crying for a few times here... sian

the next day, we travelled to Poipet from Siem Reap. The journey was very exhausting and annoying. the air con was not cold and i perspired. our bags were filled with dust because of the bumpy and dirty roads. =(. before we reached Poipet we went to the "Weaving Village" to check out the golden silk trail. the silk sold there was like how bloody expensive. *all ranging from US$20-$100* ><.. The place was filled with DUNG =.-.. the silk worms they use are fed with some specific Mulberry Tree they plant. There was this wooden staircase which has got no handle (waheoaheoaheoha). Ms Hia found difficulties cos she was like how scared. Mdm Chong said she has got a back-bone problem. oh well. =/.. we were in the bus for 7 hours, when we reached Poipet. i was so annoyed by the louzy hotel and the dirty food. few of my friends ate ants who were on the rice. Calvin Gan found worms in his rice and water man. ewhaoehaoehaoeoae.. my bed in the hotel was like practically SINKING... Germaine had to share the room with me and Cassandra because her room got some problem. That night, i slept with DISCOMFORT.

The next day, we went to Chockey Village(formly known as Nong Chan during the war period). Some people living in Chockey Village work in Thailand. (cambodian's currency is like so what the hell lor). Some people living there are also farmers. you can really find ALOT of farmers and fishermen in Cambodia man... saw the chief of the village and a few dudes who were our age but were so bloody malnutrition that they looked like 7 or 6(wat the hell =.---...) The people im cambodia wear such dirty clothes and most(like 95++++%) of them are like SO SO SO SO POOR. :s... bleagh. ..

anyways, i shall continue blogging once i reached Singapore. =D.

2006-03-05T03:00:00.000+08:00

going airport now. nothing much to post nowadays. just wanna tell yall im leaving now. take care aights everyone? love yah. <3

2006-03-02T20:53:00.000+08:00

school...? ummm.. my maths teacher doesnt know how to pronouce 'denominator'. great. . some secrets i tell my seniors only. sigh. life is like a threat nowadays. i almost cried on the spot for lunch. you dont have to know why. think it's pretty obvious.. oh well.

today received overall marks for Lit and English*yay*. Lit i got 2nd in class (damn..) with 2 marks away from magdalene who got first. i was just 2 marks away from A1. haiiis. Haha, at least i got higher then SHANNON *yay*. i won him in english too! ^-^... i got A1 for english. top in class. i wish i get to 2D next year :S. or smth... for sec 3 subjects... i dont know why. but im already planning xD. i know i would like 90% take bio and arts. 100%=literature. hehe. xD.

sigh. i dont want a bf until im AT LEAST in JC... unless the guy is like much older den me or smth... friends i really cherish. but i advice not to wait for me. im pretty not much worth it. my advice is just to see wether you would even wait for me. if you wont, dont bother waiting for a while lah. dont slip a chance to love the true one.

the only reason now i know why i heard 6C guys will be disliked by the girls they like is because of the TEASINGS they get. im so tired of it. i like being a loner, dont come any closer. i treat all you guys as my friends. but not more then that. sigh. i just wanna concentrate on my studies. dont spoile my life. dont come telling me that you guys pity me and then just abandon me by teasing and laughing at me. it hurts.

2006-02-27T20:09:00.000+08:00

haha, the past few days had been seeing friends i nvr met for so long. on the saturday, i went to youth class as pernormal at NBC(north bridge center) which is located only 5 minutes walk from Bugis. i met Eddie at bugis with his friend walking around. he was as usual, as trendy as ever :D. after that, my sist and i went to Lido to watch the pink panther with the rest of the family. it was funny lah. kinda lame but thats whats so funny about it :s.

the next day i woke up at 8, did some homework and den met bryan and leroy at jurong entertainment at around 2+. i took the wrong bus... was supposed to take 66 den go straight to jurong but i took 61 and ended in Bukit Batok. oh well. im always so blur. lol. when i was in lido, i was supposed to go to the toilet but i ended walking to the door of a movie theather. lol. xD. this happend TRICE. zz. i always am so blur. i know.. blueagh ><... at around 4:40+ bryan sent me to my church at Queenstown. reached on time :D. after the serment, there was food (it happens once every month). it was some pastry. *yum*. haha. tuna pastry. i dont know. it was just nice :O xD. blueagh. den ate across the church. after that, went home.

when i reached home i finished all my homework and i slept at 11pm :s. i woke up at 6 today *lol, i know i woke up late*. and den i was late for school. BLAME THE BUS. THE BUS WAS LATE x=. xD. i met ADELINE, ALOY AND ERIK at the bus stop. how cool is that. ahah, i usually see aloy but i dont usually see adeline and erik. they nvr seem to change much. but it was nice meeting an ex-school mate :D.

at school , it was usual. boring as ever. for PE i ran 2.4km. i was damn happy to know my timing was 15:23. in the cross country i took about half an hour. cos i ate 2 fishballs which made my stomach hurt. lol =.-... wei wen was my partner for PE. YAY. HE's my korkor now . i dont care. weahoehaoehaoehao xD.(he gave me a dollar to buy ice cream cos i did well in my running. how sweet is that of him?:D. yay xD) well at least now i treat him like one of my bestest friends in class. the closest people to me is probably timothy and him. Emily is my good friend. the rest are probably just friends .. tml gna celebrate people who was born in January and February. Esther's the one who's gna buy the cake. heard it was half a kilo and it's CHOCOLATE. FAT ME FAT ME. LOL. i just like ate chocolate cake and pizza and cheeseburger a few days ago lah. blueagh xD.. keke. who cares!? LOL xD.i ate alot today too =.-...

sigh. today band was oK. :D. had a briefing for the Cambodia . i got elizabeth and shreedhee as my roomates...as for the project i have to do...i got smart people in my group. Nathaniel, Jonathan and Christopher Teo. all from 1E(if im not wrong, its the best class :D). yeap. have to do a project with them. hopefully we can score alot cos it takes 30% for our exam marks ! *gasp*. oh well. cambodia, here i come! xD

bleaugh

2006-02-24T22:13:00.000+08:00

sigh. timothy the closest friend i have in class now. oh well. i hope you dont go away. i miss the ol' times. haha. at least today we had band. yay. i humped with bryan, saw melissa in band, mikhtam came to band and went to carls jr with leroy after band. alston was supposed to come with us den he went to orchard!damn. oh well. xD. i got a new wallet. cos my wallet sucked. it was 'ripped'-lol. roxy wallet worth 30 bucks. dont really think my mom was satisfied with the fact that i bought a new wallet. but im happy that nobody talked much cock about it! :]. yay! hehe. xD. sigh. i dont even know why they hate me. oh well. i felt like it is a curse or something. people laughing at me, people teasing me... sigh. hope i can ask emily to eat with me during recess or find my band seniors... but i dno lah. hahahah.. :s. im so sad mikh and bryan are gg to graduate this year!damnnn >,<... =(. sigh. oh well.

sigh

2006-02-22T20:58:00.000+08:00

i just took injections(pcg and mmr)hand pain.probably get fever tomorrow and next week. cant wait till i get to Cambodia.( i still dont know who is gna be my room mate in the hotel.gah....)... today was kinda sad. but i was happy to meet my senior Yaoyuan and bully hao kai. *loooolllll..* i went to acsi after school and den played bball for 2 hours. after that i went home and eat dinner. soon i decided to have an injection that i had missed in p.6. i played bball for 1 hr before i went to see the doctor(cos i know it would probably take AT LEAST 1 hour to wait for the doc) bleagh.

today school was not satisfying. but im kinda happy that i heard for my oral marks (lit) i got 9/10. hopefully i get at least 7 or 8 for the presentation. i need to cope with my studies well and balance up everything with my low marks for chinese.

i feel so lonely,
people reject me,
people dislike me,
people dont understand me

sometimes during lunch
i feel so alone.
i dont know who to eat with now.
hardly anyone is close to me.

im so sad . so so sad.
no friends to talk to.
no friends to laugh with.
i miss my joyce. =(

i never realized people
hated me this much.
i should've known better.
the pasts haunts me down.
nothings seems to change
i feel so cheated, ..like last time

i wished for a new beginning
but nobody seems to click so well with me
i miss my bestfiend. sigh

nowadays

2006-02-21T20:58:00.000+08:00

i have a skin on my thumb which is tore, a sprained left ankel and a not well educated tuition teacher. lolx. had my first tuition today. 7~8.30 . she helped me with maths and chinese. hopefully i at least will pass my chinese next time lah hor? not 38 =.-... bleagh. life is kinda okay right now. not as frustrating as past few weeks ( maybe because there are less homework or smth..)... today was the councilors+class comitee investiture. got a blue badge which says 'MONITOR' . keke, watch out ! xD.

today i was praised by my english teacher, mdm chong. i never realized i was that 'good'. i started giggling. oh well. lol. today esther didnt go to school. emily came at like 1:15.. and left at 3:45.. poor thing. she's sick but she doesnt wanna get scolding from her dad *sigh. oh well. i'll just pray more for her :)*. next is turtle koh, christopher who was having fever and went home after the enrichment started for just 45 minutes. i had fever 1 hour before the enrichment started. i think it was kinda high. ><... oh well.

today my senior, foker sent me home. he owes me one. my left ankle is probably sprained cos i chased after him. he was like totally bullying me about ching kai lah. bOOOoO. nasty lil thing. oh well. YOURE FORGIVEN. :O. YES, i know im kind :O . LOL. xD. man. im this seriously BHB girl . im like YY'S PARTNER! YES. HAHAHHA. i AM YY'S PARTNER actually... today i met YY in school when i was sending chris and emily to the GO(which is not relevant, but im happy i did. cos i could meet my senior ^^. ) hehe yup. today was fun :D.

acjc

2006-02-18T21:03:00.003+08:00

cross country. wasnt the top 40. haha, i ate 2 fishball. pain lah stomach. den i help one girl. not sure her name. hehe, oh yah, thanks to my friend mitra, for the box of chocolates. ummm... cross country... our class gotten best for sec 1/2 girls. roxors. 75 bucks not that bad. oh well. xD. MORE MONEY. CHALLET PARTY ! xD. hehe.

anws, after the cross country, charmaine and i went to ACJC Fun-O-rama. rocked. i paid 4 bucks for some paint on my face *lol*. and some snacks. I got slippers(for those bedroom and all) from YY. CUTE SIAL! I LOVE IT! :D. then umm. i got a mug cos i played in YY's station. i have to admit, I SUCK >,<... bleagh. oh well. i took some pictures and i will be publishing it here too! *lucky you who sees it :O LOL*

HEHE. BEHOLD, THE BEAUTY OF THE OPERA. *rofl*

CUTE LIL THINGS!xD

band

2006-02-17T21:25:00.000+08:00

lolx. i received an ultra cute doggie(handphone holder) from leroy with chocolates and lollipop and letter inside. *yes, i am obessed with letters, i get really touched easily :D*. i got a lollipop(strawberry taste) from bryan FOK(not to mention his surname is absolutely kinky.. wahhaha). today i ate dinner with melissa and ching kai(some senior of mine he's in sec 3...horn section). at dover coffe shop. tralalalalala. den i went to the band room , i found wee lat and alston (wee lat teaching alston how to play with the drumbs.. kinda cool .. ) i was wu liao so i decided to wait there for about 20 minutes till my dad comes.. for the breifing of the cambodia trip.. i might be skipping 1 week of school! isnt that amazing xD. HIPHIP?HURRAY. WEHAOEHAOEHAOEH :D.

welll... thats all i can think about posting.. oh yes, tomorrow, ACJC FUN-O-RAMA HERE I COME! cross country.. argh. SCREW! just because im the 'class chairman' (not to mention i am saying this 2 words in an extremely sarcastic way) i have to reach before 7! =(. i think i'll take taxi. save time. =X. i know, im a lazy pig. who cares MWAHEAHEAHE xD

Carl

2006-02-15T19:59:00.000+08:00

YOU.

dont you know you mean so much to me,
your laughter makes me happy,
your smile cheers me up.
your motivations brings me up
and your undying love is precious.

you taught me how to smile when i'm sad.
you taught me how to forgive.
you made me realize i should've been a better person
you made me realize the mistakes i've done.

i wish i could get away the bitterness.
i wish i wont ever hurt your precious heart.
i wish mine wasnt hurt last time.

your tears make me sad
i wish i could hug and comfort you
your sadness worries me and saddens me
your health, education and love-life is my concern

words will not explain the way i feel.
i just wish you know how i feel.

thank.you.
"count the roses, count my love"

valentines day

2006-02-14T19:31:00.000+08:00

HAHA. I LOVE MELISSA. I LOVE him and I LOVE VALENTINES DAY! ^^. thanks to my sweetest babe MELISSA for the box of chocolates, TO LEROY, NO OTHER PEEPS CAN UNDERSTAND A PYSCHO LIKE ME LIKE YOU DO =D. to bryan and mikhtam for smiling and make my day better and FOR CARL FOR THE EXTREMELY SWEET SWEET SWEEEEEEET ROSES!

hehe, the day wasnt so great until melissa gave me the chocolates, i tot i wldnt get anything! =( ><><... next is to cherilyn, who gave me a small chocolate :D. IM LIKE SO SO SO SO HAPPY I GOT THE FLOWERS LAH *GAHAHAHHAHA*. seriously :]. hehe...

sad to say my class cheer is absolutely screwed.. lolxed, nvm. WISH ME LUCK FOR THE BLOODY AUDITIONS TML! i wish i dont mess anything but i wish i dont get it. yups :D.

BECAUSE THIS MEANS SO MUCH TO ME.

sentosa

2006-02-13T19:23:00.000+08:00

GAH. I COULDNT CARRY MY BAG ON MY SHOULDERS. WHY? BECAUSE MY SHOLDERS WERE BURNT. gah. lol, i went to sentosa yesterday, had a tiring day, my body was totally BURNT. on saturday, i was sick so i didnt go for the ms sharmi youth thingie. but i had to go orchard to meet my mom to settle something, and then go for my youth class in bugis. i was half sleepy and half tired. luckily, i managed to be awake throughout the whole session. (well seriously, i think nowadays i dont sleep during any bible study or serments... :D. *yes, it IS a progress xD*)... haha, life is tiring. all i can say is STUDY HARD, PLAY HARD im going to cambodia on the 5th to the 12th anyways.. hehe, im missing 1 week of school! oh yeah, i have to dance for the cross country thingie, i dont think im going for the fun run since im going for the class cheer. hope we get thru the auditions and win this thing. ! :). hehe. roxors...

i uploaded some of the pictures taken by my dad in sentosa. :D. REMEBER! keren is not attractive nor sexay!weeeee.(PS. some of the photos had been edited by photoshop). oH YES, if i wouldnt have the time to have his privilage to say this out loud. HAPPY V.DAYS PEOPLE! lots of love, lots of care, lots of huggies and sweet kises! dont waste a chance to say i love you to that speeeecial someone! :D

the whole family eating our lunch :D.

our victory! the sand castle we made.

my bro and i when we were sitting at the chairlift

Tired

2006-02-09T19:19:00.000+08:00

bleagh. school is SO tiring. i even heard from Leroy that the band might think of having practices on saturdays! *NEVERRRRRRRRRR...*... ><... today band was totally slacky. melissa treated me orange juice on our 'break' xD. and hmm.. today .. actually lots of things happened this past few days lol...

im going to have tuitions starting from next week =(... all subjects, tuesdays and thursdays 7.00~8.30pm. will be so tired lah. sian. maths quiz i got 13/13 :D. maths common test i got 16/30 -.-. chinese ting xie(2)[which i tot i was gna just pass], i got 72%. today ting xie san i hope i can get 80% :]. hehe. what else arh.. ya lah, life is SOOSOO tiring. today i forgot my lit file and my other files (including *SOMETHING*) in the science lab. mr firhad made me ask the people for their science group. now i kinda understand what carl means. even though i wan to be anti-social... i still need to do projects and all. oh well.

today i ate lunch with alison, belda and some girl i dno the name. haha, i came to know that belda is damn funny, and alison is so sweet lah. =D. hehe, you guys roxors. am i anti-social? sometiems i feel as if i dont feel good to those who arent close to me. somehow somewhat... maybe the past effected me alot. maybe it was a too big blow.

=D

2006-02-05T20:54:00.000+08:00

please do see my latest blogskin i've made. im proud to show it to you guys. hopefully those who has got blogskin acc would rate. thanks :) the site is : http://www.blogskins.com/info/81739. bleagh. anyways, to the post.

today i went to Bkt Batok presbytarian. *LUCKILY*, i didnt meet charissa :D. i dont know if she saw me though. lolx. anwyays, to peeps out there, this is my blog, i post wahtever i want, dont dispice me for thinking the way i do. because this is my blog. i have all the rights to do whatever i want to do with it. so please, dont hate me because im this way. i dont usually 'show my true-self' to people im not really familiar with. but whatever is, i just want to let yall know, i love you guys. :]. and, i would really appreciate it if you guys dont 'gossip' about my blog. if you guys want then... its really none of my business because i have no rights to stop you anyways. its a public blog right? yeap... but if you guys would understand, its more of an online diary. not a place where you guys can think differently of me. i would REALLY appreciate it if you guys dont blabber sho much about it. unless im fine with it lah, eg for all my close friends (well, you guys wld probably know who you are :D). but then again, since im actually kinda close to yall already, you guys would probably know me well :D. thanks for understanding.

i know i am not perfect, well nobody is. and i know im not that really that great girl or something, i mean i know i suck sometimes. i mean who doesnt right? i just need a place i could talk and say it out to. which is actually here, my blog. so like i said, please be more understanding. i dont dislike people who talks too much.. but i do dislike people who talks too much crap. =(. i know im not a great person. but this is who i am. hate me love me, whatever it is, just to let yall know, i dont hate anyone.. well... maybe this is gna be my post today. theres rlly nth much cos i just post recently... i'm going to go for evening church next week(well, most probably). anyways, imma goooo. weeeee *flees*

its been a while

2006-02-03T22:17:00.000+08:00

hmmm..its been a while since i've posted.. and i realized that weiwen reads my blog... SO THIS IS FOR YOU WEIWEN! xD... HAWHAWHAWH =X. im SO GOOD. HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEWEN. HAPPY BIRTHDAY CARL. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAM. okay... now for ze 'actual post'

today... mrs.ong helped me in home econs(my station lah)... she rocks worh.. i didnt know.. she was like telling me cos she know i in alot of difficulties.. (u know..joshua and all)... she decided to help me lah. how nice of her :D. joshua... is forever likedat. nvm. i think he kinda attentive to maths, science and home econs. and i can see that he hates english and literature most. he's OK with chinese i guess. maybe cos he sits right infront of ms tai... hahah..

today after school went straight to City hall to meet my personal uncle justin, junie baby and carl to celebrate carl's bday =). he's 18! BOOOO. M18 AND ALCOHOLS. DAMNIT ><><.. and all i get to watch is PG13. hauis =X. nvm, I CAN MAKE HIM BUY FOR ME! AHHAHAHA xD... anyways, we ate at CARL'S JUNIOR *lol* =X. hehe, THE PORTION LIKE HELL LOT LAH, i had to go to the toilet TWICE after eating dinner. but i think i ate alot during recess also... chicken stew and nasi goreng... i cooked them when i was in home econs... hmmm... lunch i ate 1 and 3/4 of sandwich and i ate 3/4 pretz pizza stick at about 3.50 cos band got break for 15 minutes..yeap

i just kinda reached home.. maybe about 15 minutes ago.. took cab home. haha, today was fun.anyways, imma go. weeee. this is just an update of how life had been going on.. OH YAH, TODAY I WAS LOST. LOL. i took the wrong bus... hahaha xDDD... oh well.. =x i think esther knows it all.. HAHAH xD. oh well =p. i can be awarded the most gulible and blurest human in FMSS >.>.. oh well =P =x xD.

THATS ALL PEEPS. I LOVE YALL.

class site

2006-01-25T22:53:00.000+08:00

damn. i got gastric. it still huts right now, i dont know if i can go for the monday's PE lesson or for tuesdays practice for cross country*sigh...*.. oh well, done with the bad news. lets hear the good ones :D

ive finished making my class's blog. people, if you guys are interested, check it out aights? http://1cfmss05.blogspot.com. there's nothing much to post about, i spent about 1 hour designing and approx 2 hours on the code. maybe about half an hour on the annoncents, misc, news etc.

i missed literature and geog test today. must go take it tommorrow. hopefully i can somewhat ace it. i think i kinda screwed up in the 2nd ting xie *damn*... i want a re-do... i think i will only get like 50%.. sad case. oh well. i will be doing some stuffs for the class now and go tuck to bed. my stomach hurts and i still have fever *sigh*. oh well. wish me luck for test tml :D

frustrated

2006-01-21T10:20:00.000+08:00

school is really frustrating, i will be having my common test this week. (what the hell right, so bloody fast)... and den i will be having meetings(charmans) once in a week i think. its really tiring lah. yesterday i even cried at Home Econs.

Bloody Joshua, spilled the spaghetti we made. I cried because he wasted all my effort. i had to clean everything, chop the onions and cleaned all the mess he made. he's really something and im really tired of being way too patient. at the end of the home econs i didnt even take the spaghetti or worse even taste it. like i said, he spilled the spaghetti. not to mention not only the table, but the floor too. i seriously cant take it anymore. the pressure and the hatred. will my herpes come back?damn.

like always, joshua is always there to ruin all my hard efforts like in literature, he didnt do anything. he seriously screwed up everything. DAMN IT. and then for english, he wasnt even supportive enough to just come with us an take a picture. he seriously cant be bothered! GRRR. IT, forever copying my answers. and always playing with all the computer stuffs. why must i have to be stucked with him !? I HATE BEING NO.18! WHY MUST I BE A 'K' AND HE'S A 'J'. WHY MUST HE BE No.17 and ME NO.18!? ARGH. SCREW LIFE. SCREW JOSHUA LOW. =( im tired. im frustarted. life is hard. please dont make it worse for me. im tired of crying last time, and once i thought i could be happier another trouble just keeps on coming. im so sad. so angry.

i barely have time to finish my homework because i will always be having band and reach home about 6 or 7 ... sigh. oh well. its not like i can do anything. i wish i could join the atlethics. =(.... bleagh... enough with the complains...

today in the morning i woke up at 7:30. den i started jogging at 7:45.i ended jogging at 8:30, went down to buy bread and milk. i drank a glass of milk and made sandwich for breakfast. after that, i took a shower and started to do my maths homewokr. sad to say, i didnt even get an answer until now. =(

Friday the 13th

2006-01-13T18:43:00.000+08:00

watch out people. its FRIDAY, the thirteenth. woot.

maybe thats why im like SO SUAY today? ... hahaha. lame lah. today i started going to band. then haiyah, i got chosen in the main band. all the juniors, went home early... like 4 o clock.. while i, at the same level of secondary 1, had to stay back until 5.30. sigh. the band pieces was really difficult. but thats what making me so interested in them. i mean seriously lah, in primary school i could play any pieces the teacher gave me and i got bored by it. maybe... i just like new challanges.

i heard from my sectional leader, leroy(if i'm not wrong)... , said that ms.tai (my form and chinese teacher) is a very very good teacher :D. hehe. oh yeah, this week had been an extremely tiring week. im now the monitress of the class, the monitor is christopher. edwin and esther are the captains. i like all my classmates lah. oh wait, except for Joshua. but i think he did good in home econs. but still, i hate his irritating VERY VERY kinestatic personality ... guess i have to accept him the way he is. even though sometimes i feel as if i just want to burst out loud.

Sigh, i'll try to post as much as i can .. nowadays ive been really busy, esp with the homework and all those.. ontop of that, i'm forever busy. with band, homework, life, AKA-EVERYTHING? sigh. someone save me. anws, just to end this post with something different...

past oh past, how hurtful can you be. the things that i wish i can forget. the things my surroundings scare me. the encouragement i get from my teacher, the pain i suffer because of myself. the lack of confidence in life. oh dear life dear life, please stop all these. ive been tired of crying, i want to stop being angry. i want to feel precious. but people tell me, they tell me to just dont give a shit. he left me alone in the dark by myself to cry. helping another person, and i felt lonely... the tears, the pain oh life, it fucking hell hurts.

realizing God's greatfulness.

2006-01-08T08:19:00.000+08:00

okay, i'm going to divide this post into two: one is for the last day of the orientation day, and the other was yesterday, when God made me realize how wonderful life is.

last day of orientation day: we didnt win any prize, not for the skit OR the cheer. but yet im not that sad ya know. im really happy we even passed the auditions.. and im really happy for the times our class had together. now i think i can remember my whole class except for one or two :D.my class' skit was cut off ... for no reason, thats why i really really dislike, not hate, mrs.seat, even though i know she's doing bad stuffs to the class and me before and all.. but then i know its for the better :).. the orientation day lasted until 11pm!! ><><... and i LOVE all my councilors. i voted for JULIA for the most inspiring councilor. hehe, i love her to bits lah :D. ^^... i love my other councilors too, like *dno how to spell her name*, jocelyn and joy yeo.

oh, i think loads of girls voted for Lanz cause of his looks and his lively and funny character ba. yeah, i like that part of him too. but i really REALLY love julia, for her funny and unique character :]... joy has got leader quality and jocelyn is REALLY REALLY innocent and cute lah! ^-^...the other one, dno how to spell wan.. i like her disciplinary.. =D. and if any of you guys are reading this, i just want to thank the four of you guys, for being so patient and caring for the whole of 1C =). to all my friends who were there for me, make me laugh and feel damn damn happy ... i really love you guys lah :D.

hmmm.. yesterday, my brother and sister bought a new watch. my sister bought a bag and gold earrings too.. but you know, at the end of the day, i wasnt jealous, nor angry or boastful that i wasnt jealous or anything. i just felt that doing all these things are bad, and i dont want to be a bad child of God my savior. but at home i cried, because then, i just realized that i was such a bad child for the past few years ... i felt guilty, but i also felt REALLY REALLY happy that i can even see, i can even have a watch which is not as nice as my siblings, i can have a nice family.. everything. including the fact tht my dear carl is so sweet. *i love you :D*. i've never felt so blessed in my life before. i was just very happy. i was also thankful that God has made that one day, to make me realize my mistakes and feel grateful for life. i also think that it was a part of fairfield and my friends, who changed me. i feel like a born again christian.

school so far.

2006-01-05T20:26:00.000+08:00

okayyyy.first day sucked.. but wth right.. now it ROCKS. YAY. 1C FOREVER <3333. i made a couple of new friends;they really seem to rock lah :D. okay, those people that i know(and remember)... lemme just list them down yeah?xD...

Cherilyn, Ruth, Wen Min, Joanne, Emily, Samantha, Magdelene, Elisa, Esther, Elizabeth, Natalie, Wei Wen, Edwin, Nigel, Yui Wen(?), Timothy, Jarel, Nicson, Hao Hang, (concilers)Joy, Jocelyn, Julia... one more ... indian, dno how to spell, dno how to pronouce her name either :|... lolx, the rest i kinda forgot.. or dont know yet.. mostly the guys i dno de lah .. ><><..

we got in to talenttime show. HURRAY. im kinda lazy to post nowadays.. bleagh.. in fairfield it's really tiring.. tml ending school at like 9:30pm.. bleaghz.. will update if i bother .. opps xD.

as time flies

2006-01-02T11:12:00.000+08:00

wow.. i cant believe im going to start secondary life starting from tomorrow onwards... gosh, does time fly, and without knowing anything, i would probably finish secondary school already... that's fast xD... it's kinda sad i have to leave primary school... everyone seemed to be so happy with the new years ... i feel as if im the odd one out...

this year.. things will be more difficult... in studies and in everything else... i must be more matured and be more responsible.. and caring too i guess. i have to start understanding life more... and stuffs.. i feel as if i'm not ready to get older yet. all i wanted is just to stay at this age forever. when life is so easy... well, not so easy now but.. LOL. yah, you get what i mean. i'm really not happy that i have to get older or smth xD... i mean wth... i think im not even matured enough.. eekkk.. ><

sigh... thats life right? wth can i do about it? sucks or not, nice or what. i'm not God. ><... i'll just have to pray and wish for a safe and smooth sailing ahead :D.

past few days and today

2005-12-31T22:30:00.000+08:00

hmmm... carl and i celebrated our anniversarry with june and justin on the 29th, actual date is 30th. it was fun lah. esp that part when my uncle was playing para2.. wahhaha.. he look 100% GAY! ^-^~~.. xDD..

Yesterday.. was damn suayy.. we first went to fairfield secondary to get 2 of my school books because popular didnt have them... den we went to buona vista or whatever crap you call that MRT station because my sist needs her EZ-link cause she lost her wallet in Indonesia... den... the place closed down.. so we headed for Jurong East.. and den we read that she needs a pasport size photo with her SCHOOL UNIFORM~~ ><><.. den cause i need a new charger... we went to boon lay(jurong point) ... just to find out that it changed its place T.T"...den i read the waranty card.. and saw that there was one place in TOH GUAN.. which is located at Jurong East.. lol.. den we were so feddup... so at the evening i went with Carl to orchard to change my charger or something.

carl and i reached orchard about 6.30... den we took a number to wait for 1 hour.. and the only thing we did was just say a couple of words ... the person said the charger cannot fix.. den we had to buy a new one.. 30.45 bucks... we didnt even take 5 minutes to talk.. and we waited for like one bloody hell long hour -.-"... after that we went to LONG JOHN ^-^~~... but the place was full =[... so we ate at cafe cartel... dear ate some cheese and mushroom pasta while i ate chiken teriyaki burgerrrr. hehe.. it was delicious... we shared a drink:mint chocolate or something.. kinda nice lah.. ^^... den dear checked out the tournament his clan withdrawed because of some reasons placeeee. i think it looked kinda cool and all~ ~ ~.. anws, after that we head home as fast as our feet could take us :o.. *we finished dinner at 8:15*...

we reached my house busstop at 9:20!! omg!! den ya lah..*missing text* we went straight to my house :o! i reached home at around 9:30+... den my mom paid carl 30 bucks for the NEW CHARGER.

TODAYYYYYY... ummm.. i woke up at 9.20+ because i had to go to fullerton hotel(office) to eat lunch.. the food not that nice.. but den ya lah.. what to do? den it was like buffet style or smth.. if dont finish not good de what... i took the food and all liao... got 1 stupid guy who kept on talking nonsense :o.. opps! ><.. screw him lah. SCREW HIM DEEP DEEP DEEP! :o... LOL, off topic about that guy.. after that my FEVER came back again. the night before i kinda had fever already lah... i found out that was coughing phlegm which contained blood init when i was taking a shower cause i was coughing.. eekx... now my throat still HURTSSS ><... oh well T.T.. Dear came to visit me and reached my house abt 5:50... den we ate dinner together.. oh yah, MY SWEETEST DEAR helped me fixed my internet... lolx, dont ask what he did -.-".. den ya lah.. we ate dinner together.. with my mom and grandma and sisterrrrr. den my grandma kinda persuaded my sist to pierce her ears.. so we went to westmall

we went to the 'De silver' and my sister pierced her ears.. i dont think its painful at all lorh.. i mean.. i pierced like 7 times in my life liao -.-'... after that i went to buy new shoes at bata... den met my sister and grandma at popular since my sister hasnt got all her books... after that my grandma, carl and i sat down beside the foodcourt.. and i saw eddeee!!!!! ^-^... den he told me that xiaoxuan and angel was downstairs at sakae sushi.. i kinda met them for a while or smth lah.. but then i was with my mom and all.. so .. yeap.. dear and my family went our seperated ways after he followed us until the interchange thereeee. i had fun this few days :D. esp whenever im with my deaaaaaar <3333 ^-^..

oh ps. my mom bought a new condo: garden vista. #10-05. the happiest part is that i dont have to walk for 15 minutes forever... just for 4/5 months.. yay

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEEPS. SMUACKZZZZZZ.

carl <333

2005-12-28T12:13:00.000+08:00

my present from dearrie : a pussy with a santa cap doll <333.><.. well... for these 4 days i dont have to bring any textbooks because we're all just going to bond =D.. but it will only be our 4 days not having to bring textbooks to school until we graduate.. wahahha.. yeap.. fairfield looks like an exciting school...

i so want to join the track team.. but i dont think i can make it... it'll be SO SO SO SO SO cool if i can... cause primary 4 i wanted to join... but then got band... even though jowena my friend from track&field asked me to join.. boo hoo hoo.. i think i stopped training and all ><... sigh...well band.. i know that it starts at 3 and ends at 6+ on mondays and thursdays. and on fridays, it will start at 2.30 and end at 6.30 >.>... i guess i'll have to arrange my timetable... and i think my BESTFRIEND joyce is going to move in to my house or something.. maybe nxt year.. it'll be so cool lor... ><><... oh yah, i think she will move with her brother also.. Jason.. i think he's pretty ok lah, kinda guaiguai type ^-^.. hehe...

the ~~past~~.. there's no point talking about it.. might as well be happy about the presence... the future is just another blank page where i can start writing another new chapter.

oh yah, on monday joyce and i went to sentosa. we went from 11pm until 10pm! it was a BLAST man. hwahha, my mom fetched us cause it was so late. we watched the magicial fountain and it ROCKED i'll be putting up the 2 pictures i scanned we took in Sentosa<33...

PLEASE CLICK ON THE IMAGES TO SEE THE ACTUAL SIZE

Snowball, my treasure

Sentosa, our memories

Joyce and I, BEST FRIENDS forever.

It's Christmas...

2005-12-25T00:27:00.000+08:00

today i woke up at 12.15pm... i slept for about 12 hours... wahahahaha... >< ><... then we went to Bukit Timah plaza at 2, after eating Lunch and taking a shower. I ate sushi there and then we went to Garden Vista to check out the condominium. After that we went back to Bukit Timah Plaza and bought a few groceries. *oh yah, i also ate my 'dinner' there :S... cause i was hungry liao xD*... After reaching at 6.20pm at home, i went to my bro's room(since he's not here) and used his computer for about 1.5hrs+... then i took a few bites of fried rice while my grandma and my mother ate their dinner.. we watched TV until the show ended and went to orchard at around 8+

It was kinda late... when we reached there, about an hour and the shops all close liao... ><... orchard was fantastic :)... I felt so sad because i couldnt share that moment of happiness in Orchard with Carl =(... oh well.. at least i got some people to pei me i guess... i mean.. i love them and all what.. hehe :D.. We reached home at around 11.30 pm... i went to my brother's room to use the computer again for a while and then at 12+ i called Carl and wished him Merry Christmas... Wahahaha... his friends sounded so cheerful and all. Farny lah. um.. somehow xD. Yeap, after that i kissed my marmie and grandma and ate edamame with them while we sat on the couch infront of the TV... yeap, so here i am now... just finished making a new blogskin. The HTML.. i'm going to credits it to 'GERMAINE' aka orangepapaya (search her in blogskins if you want)... yeap.. i abit lazy to code so i just took alot of her code and change the picture with my simple design because i am inspired by 'boobookittyfuck'. <333. Yeap, so here i am posting my... post ^^"? wahhaha.. whatever it is... MERRY X'MAS TO EVELIONE :D

Singapore here i come

2005-12-19T23:34:00.000+08:00

going to singapore tomorrow. i know i've not been posting, that's why i'm posting now. life hasn't been easy for the past 1~2 months. well, very difficult i guess... sigh, anyway, to my usual rantings...

today we celebrated my cousin's birthday. the cake was delicious , esp the rum part. =). the ice cream was nice too!! =). yesterday i followed my sister to her friend's 17 birthday party. it was fun. esp when the guys who were chosen to play the games.. lolx.. they were told to do a stupid game which made them kiss each other! hhaha, harris had to kiss edwin by the LIPS man. that's SICK xD. got those who kiss the forehead, the hand, the leg, the tummy, the ear.. and the arse. whahaa. so funny la... well it was so much fun.. oh well, i hope you guys are happy : my cousin and angel. "happy birthday".

Pondok Indah

2005-12-07T23:18:00.000+08:00

today i woke up at about 10+ ... because my sister used her phone and used all her ringtones to wake me up -.-.. very funny..ate breakfast and bathed.. after that i went to the dining table and saw a CHOCOLATE.(you know how well i cant resist to chocolates xD).. damn nice lor. and its so cute. :3. the shape and all.. oh ya, the taste was different, sweeter and nicer ! i think there was caramel init !^^

After eating lunch, we went to 'Kemang', my auntie made some cards to anounce to people that it is her silver wedding anniversarrrry *how cute :D*.. den drank coffe in "gloria jeans".. from america.. but more popular in australia.. yeah.. it taste nicer !!! must try wan.. :D hehe, ya la.. drank the coffe to kill time to see the design and all.. umm.. den my auntie was told that there was 3 package let you have a free 5R photo... take picture inside the new studio.. den she ask me go lor.. liew.. i didnt really looked nice in the photo... so im not showing it :x

in gloria jeans, i managed to kinda call my friend and asked her out for a date in Pondok Indah. played alot at Time Zone and Fun World with Ella.. yes, let me repeat, ella :D. hehe, 1 and a half hours.. fun man~~. .. i wanna play again X.x.. but im kinda currently broke right now... wahahahha xDD.. yeap.. den went window shopping with my sist as usual, and was fetched at 7pm by my auntie's driver and head back home.. we reached at 8 and i ate my medicine at about 8.20.. and i ate dinner after that... :D

after that at 9, my auntie and uncle came.. they ate dinner with my cousin who was sick.. my uncle's leg was sprained la.. so poor thing.. i hope he gets better :D.. he kinda fell in the office or something i guess.. oh well ^^"...

A missing Wallet

2005-12-06T18:38:00.000+08:00

my sister lost her wallet :o.. =x =x.. then she asked me to lend her 60,000 rupiah which is actually equivelant.. or however you spell it.. =S to 10 sg bucks. but im getting 20, and she promised me, and to the eyes of God =X. hehe. nono , she started it first, she was like so sad that she still needs to go out with her friends and buy more comics -.-

today later got Mulia family gathering, from my father side. some dinner and all. i think my 30 year old cousin(male) is bringing his girl.. not sure la.. he addresses her as friend. lolx. i think its sweet. (: ... but im kinda full right now, i ate alot.. at the shopping mall we ate crepes.. and thats when my sister lost her wallet.. well, thats what we assume.. the movie tickets that we bought were inside her wallet.. but luckily the person who sells the tickets still remember us la.. and my sister kinda remember the seat numbers.. we watched 'Just Like Heaven'.

Some of the parts really made me cry la, i think some people too. Some also damn funny man... The story is really not logicial.. lolx, i mean if you see it in a 'logical' way.. ya duh . lol. some 'spirit's that was still on earth even though she was in a coma. yeap.. sounds weird right? but , its really funny and dramatic la.. more of romance than the comedy side though. i would give it 4 Stars-if you needa to see the picture of the Movie i watched, just scroll down :D( i dont know.. maybe you'll know it after seeing the picture or something :S... )

my rating: 4 Stars

food poisoning

2005-12-05T14:34:00.000+08:00

i was food poisoned. my grandfather gives me food but i dont eat them. i feel kinda guilty.. sigh.. ive lost all my appetite and i can hardly move. i feel so weak and i cant eat properly. i had been going to the toilet often and vomitting several times.

i feel as if people dont appreciate things when they're happy. but... i think i always pray that im satisfied that God had sacrificed his life for all of our sins and his salvation is the most precious gift i ever received. well.. is God trying to tell me something? or am i just taking things too seriously. my chest hurts and my stomach feels like something is over it and not letting me breathe properly. i hope i get better soon.

Bandung

2005-12-03T00:58:00.000+08:00

BANDUNG,the paris of Indonesia. :D

I SAW THIS GIGANTIC HOUSE OWNED BY 'YOYONG'. LOL. his actual name is 'Hendra' la. -.-... wahhaha.. just that my cousin's ex mom calls him yoyong.. wth... lmao.. wt a name.. lolx.. umm.. did loads of shopping.. spent alot.. ate alot... the place 'THE VALLEY' was great. the fact that the weather was perfect, the food was delicious, the place was romantic was just simply irrisistable. wahahha. sounds as if im like advertising it .. LOL xD

Ate soupzasoup or something.. didnt really see the menu.. xD.. i bought a drink called Blueberry Float.. it was so nice man.. so fresh , and ontop of that, they gave me a strawberry ice cream for a blasting flavour.. yumm yumm xD.. The main course that my uncle bought was OMGSH xD.. "grilled breaded chicken with ham and cheese inside..." yes, you know how it felt like.. so delicious man xD.. wahoehoehoehoe.. we shopped alot.. reallly ALOT. wahahha..

The hotel was OK la.. 4/5 stars i guess... The Breakfast Buffet was plain lor.. but i loved the kakap with the gingerale sauce most (:.. ya.. haha.. OH YA, HOTSPRING. I WENT TO A HOTSPRING. it was GREEEEEEEEEAT xD. hehe.. yaya.. =s..

pretty much like that... :D

one day before i leave for bandung

2005-11-30T21:55:00.000+08:00

tml morning at about 5am, i will go to Bandung with Uncle Teguh, Auntie Yoki, my sist and my mom. I was so schocked to receive an sms at like 7 am telling me that my mom is finally coming to indonesia 'NOW' -.-"... She took Garuda.. My sist took SQ.. i took AWair =(. oh well. waheoheoheo..

today damn suay. i fell twice at the ice skating rink. and i usually dont =X. serious xD. First one was terrible, i fell down on my back and my right arm couldnt move for about 10 minutes and i needed to wait till my sister helped me to get up. The second was not any better, i fell and both of my hands scratched the ice. i still got the marks ><.lolx...

I ate soup at Texas Chicken while my other cousins ate chicken and rice for dinner... i wanted to eat dinner with my mom lor... yeap... we ate sushi.. yeah.. you guessed it. i planned that we eat sushi xD. muwwwwahahahahahha (:

oh ya, PS: i wont be using the comp for about 2 days since i wont be in Jakarta, and my charger was left at my other auntie house again because i had kinda some. yah, its kinda long story... so my phone would probably not last long. =S.

Yes, i would most likely post a another post after i come back from Bandung (:. i will do tonnes of shopping there *mwahahhahah*. and there's nobody stopping me! im with my mom now! HIP HIP~~ HURRRAAY *wohohohooho*

OH YA. I MET CLEMENT! the one from my church. saw him ice skating after i ate dinner at sakae sushi. wahoeheoheoehoe. so long nvr meet le. i hope i can meet patricia and ella soon. ^^'... yeap, maybe i'll call them after i come back from Bandung or something..

sadness

2005-11-28T23:54:00.000+08:00

The tears and agony. My condolences to my uncle, Teddy Purnomo. I hope that you surrending your life to God for your children's life will come true. I hope Kor Yopie will stop all his smoking and for Kor Ronny to become a true christian. God bless.

Seeing Auntie Rut moaning that she want to follow Uncle Teddy to Heaven was such a pain to everyone's heart. I think i would probably do the same. Losing someone you love the most on Earth. I would probably break down if Carl died =(. And i know i will cry alot when my stupid Uncle will die. hikz.. why the hell am i sanguine. why the hell am i so sensitive? bOooOo ><

Traalallalalaa. i miss my carl. BOooO hooOo hooo =(

New Blog

2005-11-25T12:12:00.000+08:00

okay. so this is my new blog. screw the previous one. i had some stuff hidden in it. YES, some PERSONAL stuff you guys dont needa know =P. I'll be using this one now. I know it sounds like ive been changing blog and all. but yea, screw the previous one.

Okay, first post.. my PSLE results. An agreegrate of 190. An acceptance in Fairfield by the Express stream. An Art elective programme <3>Chinese B. shocked? so am i ! ><.. wahahaha.. Hehe, i seem kinda hip by this thing. i mostly excited by the art elective programme xD. but hell... walking to KAP Bus-stop is like 10 minutes... and then take bus to fairfield is about 15 minutes... that means i have to wake up like 6 am everyday.. argh.. and i usually wake up at like 6.30 -.-... damn.. xD ..

I wont be posting much.. im in Jakarta right now.. i kinda need the first post to see the blogskin i've made.. the skin is just temporary.. cos i didnt design it.. no photoshop here.. i'll be making a new skin in Singapore.. and then maybe make a new skin for Dominic(pei hwa). Umm.. after reaching singapore i would probably go straight to the basketball court to meet my kor and his girlfriend. and yeap, im bringing Carl along.

Oh yeah, please get used to my new look: due to my new hairstyle. i permed it. wahahha. looks like broooOm. this is not poodle style man. this is ultra cattails x)). want a picture of it? haha, sure.. i will put it down.. :)